Life of Being Twoplusone

To Be Loved?

2011-09-29T02:07:00.001+08:00

When you said it’s over
I lost my head!
And now that we’re older
I’m giving up on being right
So I can see the other side of you!

Really?

2011-09-02T04:06:00.002+08:00

If a girl can still love you after you broke her heart, I guarantee you, she is the one!

The 1st best thing in 2011

2011-01-03T19:22:00.005+08:00

Finding someone who knows all your mistakes and differences and still find you absolutely amazing :)

It is time..

2011-01-01T00:05:00.031+08:00

to grow up!

New year, new beginning, new life baybeh!
It's gonna be different this year :)
I hope, because I believe that it'll stays strong and never change.

Gonna CUTT till the end of the world. You gonna die too :p

For 2010, you've been moderately good to me but I'm looking forward to 2011. So bye for now. Let's welcome 2011 with a joyful and forgiving spirit!

p/s: Whoever reading this, I hope you have a wonderful year ahead.

Hugs and kisses from the 2011 me :D

Glory

2010-11-17T07:24:00.000+08:00

If you give me a heart, I can give you a soul.

The depth of your Love, I'll never know.

*Another awesome song by Jaeson Ma.

Quote of the day:

2010-11-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

A person who truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation is.
If someone seriously wants to be a part of your life, they will seriously make an effort to be in it!

What say you?

I need a leap

2010-11-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

09112010 - the shittest day ever

现实的秘密

2010-11-03T17:28:00.000+08:00

小時候，幸福是一件简单的事。
長大了，简单是一件幸福的事。
我要的，很简单，可你办不到..

An Honest Mistake - Breath In Just Once More

2010-10-19T15:08:00.001+08:00

Trying hard to figure out the answer to the equation
Of how and when and what we have eventually become
Days are growing cold and I’m not getting farther
To be the one by your side, to walk you through the night
Breathe in to breathe out
A year has gone now and I’m still standing in my corner
Have I moved on or have I changed? These thoughts are in my head
I’m tired of all the confusion creating in itself
A masterpiece where you and I, we celebrate the lies
Keep myself grounded from the spaces in the air
Remind me of the time when I
When I first held your hand
A revelation of fabrications
Taste the bitter wine
Here’s the toast to all of our lives

First Step - Reconciled

2010-09-20T02:22:00.003+08:00

Yes.

I took the first step.

Like finally.

Was contemplating all these while or should I say, in my 21years of life I have not been committed to Christ. Always back-slided whenever God is trying to reach out to me. But today, it was different. I sensed something calling upon me, asking me to lift my hands up and so I did :)

This is it, the first step to a closer fellowship with Him.

*Father God Lord, I commit myself to You O Lord. Please guide me with all I am going through now and open up my heart to You Lord. I want to know more of You Lord. Help me in everything I do, to make better decisions and not be blinded by things I am not supposed to. Thank You Lord for always been there for me whenever I needed You. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Nostalgia

2010-09-19T01:46:00.009+08:00

I do not remember days;
I remember moments.

It's surprising how much memory is built around things unnoticed at the time.
Do you remember?

They Rock!

2010-09-17T14:46:00.001+08:00

Filipinos.

Sweetest people ever.

♥

One of my mum's friend baked apple pie for me when I was back home for Raya. She's like my 2nd mother, always advice me on this and that, nag me here and there, baked me food I love and buy me stuff I want. And she was once a tomboy! Fawsome!

Her apple pie is effing delicious!

Picture doesn't do justice!!!

*Just a short update to jot stuff like this down :)

You Suck

2010-09-12T03:43:00.005+08:00

Yes I suck.
Disappointment is all over me now.

FULL STOP.

An nounce ment

2010-08-26T23:58:00.001+08:00

Oh kay, maybe not an announcement. Just another update about the awesome me myself and I.

YES I AM AWESOME. you know that.

And when was the last time I blogged? I can't even remember. Guess I just moved on without blogging but the fact is I don't blog much ever since I started this blog here. wtf. I thought about it and decided to TRY to blog as often as I can. Awesome, no?

Good news is I am having two months break currently woots! Bad news is the break ends on this Sunday and here I am just started blogging. How pathetic. I told myself to start blogging again at the beginning of my break and look!

Anyway, I did nothing much during my break than just:
*sleep
*eat
*shit
continuously until today.

I know, I am awesome right.

That is how I wasted my free time but let me tell you, it was definitely AWESOME.

And if you believe in what I had just wrote, you ARE awesome. Just kill me if you expect me to waste my break like that for TWO EFFING MONTHS. It's fun sleeping, eating and shitting but for two months straight? No way.

So what I did was, erm... erm...stupid little things you would do when you are too free, like:

(i) CAM WHORE!!!

During the day...

and even night.
p/s: seen swollen eyelids before? look up!

Purposely uploaded this cause my teeth look straight here :D

Practicing on "ganas & scary at the same time" expression.

Well, this is good for your face muscle you see. Try exercising your face muscle by doing stupid lame pose or expression.

According to nincompoop.com, it prevents from getting wrinkles and you might look younger. Start doing it three times a day for effective results.

And lastly, pout & pose glamorously after the face muscle exercise.

Awesome exercise huh? Easy and effective. Tee hee.

(ii) Eat eat eat om nom nom

Holiday without food is NOT me.

passion fruit cheese cake

awesome banana cake.

yes that is my breakfast.

Kamunting siam laksa, slurpp.

Lemon green tea and raspberry. Buy 1 free 1 woots.

(iii) Work for extra pocket money

Oreo's new flavour, blueberry ice cream. I don't really like it though.

and the list goes on...

I'm lazy already, continue tomorrow perhaps? Or the day after tomorrow? I am working from tomorrow until Sunday, so it is NOT an excuse to not blog. And it is a public holiday tomorrow so I am going to serve a hell lot of cheapskate people searching for free gift. Yes I am giving out free gift so come and find me. Call me to know more info. wtf I'm promoting again.

WHY do I have to work when everyone is having an off day. @#$*!

And oh, let me end this post by telling you that I saw a Bangladesh gay couple holding hands while I was working the other day. How cool weh, it's my first time seeing Bangla gays. *gaystruck*

The Good Bye

2010-07-15T06:42:00.004+08:00

我发觉，

无法轻易忘记放弃是因为付出过．

付出了就会像柱子一样扎根在心．

不要刻意去逃避刻意忘记那只会让你更痛苦．

所以，

绕开这个柱子继续寻找未来才对．

不再见．

Surprise Surprise!

2010-07-12T00:00:00.020+08:00

Boo, don't click this!

The Story of Poop and Dung

2010-05-04T02:47:00.009+08:00

Disappointment happens when dream meets reality.

Diffident happens when imperfect meets perfect.

Euphoria happens when she meets he.

Gay happens when he meets he.

But...

What happens when poop meets dung?

Deja-vu?

Out of Bounds

2010-04-14T19:57:00.009+08:00

在不适合的时间

不适合的情况与气氛

遇到了不该遇到的 ....

可惜可惜

也没预料这会发生

自己为够坚固

但我深深沉浸了

甚至回不了头

一次又一次的

让人摇动

放弃已无效

因你赢走了它。

Perplexity Disorder

2010-03-29T22:55:00.006+08:00

She is outside.

It's been way too long.

And she'd been wanting for the sun. Literally.

And with her wide eyes,

She'd seen worlds that don't belong!

Yet, she has no control over it.

Tell me why we live like this.

Tell me why..

Give her life.

She wants to be whole.

Is that too much to ask for ?

It got me to ponder

2009-09-12T02:39:00.012+08:00

緣份...

是一種很炫的東西，

通常是在不知不覺中出現。

當它存在之時，你可能不會珍惜；

期待它到來時，它卻一直都不出現.

有人問：你為什麼喜歡一個人？

我只能夠說出為什麼不喜歡一個人，

卻說不出為什麼喜歡一個人。

喜歡一個人，是一種感覺。

不喜歡一個人，卻是事實。

以後，無論快樂或哀愁，我們也想不起當初為什麼愛她。

因只有當我們不愛一個人時，才會找出不愛她的原因。

Saw this from a friend’s blog. I find it quite interesting to ponder on. Common yet complicated.

Sorry if there’s some banana(s) out there who don’t know how to read Chinese words and yesh I mean you :P

Here’s a part of what I have interpreted:

You can’t explain when you like someone regardless of what form of relationship as it is a feeling. But when you dislike/hate someone surely there will be a reason for it. So true!

Anyway, I have not been updating my blog for the past some time.

1# I was really emo and stressed up with my new semester = assignment wtf.

2# Added with stupid wifi in hostel that gone dead for almost two weeks which lead to McD EVERY night wtf wtf.

3# And somehow my lappie crashed when I have my assignment due few days later wtf wtf wtf.

My life was screwed up this September. Eventually, things got back to normal today (which explains the mood of blogging) except that I still need to reformat my lappie. Currently I can ONLY online with safe mode. Sigh.

I know. It is not really a big deal but still, I just don’t like it when shit happens to me. Who would?

Okie enough crapping, Check this out. First time drawing using Adobe Illustrator in Intro to Design class. Cute not cute not??

Supposed to be a Garfield but my imagination gone wild. Big sexay lips =DDD

IRRESISTIBLE FLATS!

2009-08-09T00:30:00.009+08:00

CONFESSION: My ❤ for Crocs is back!

I want Crocs’s flats so much since last year when I went to the Crocs retail in Phil.

BUT …

So expensive T_____________T

Beruk a.k.a my pig son called me earlier and told me he bought a Crocs sandal for rm30 in ss2. wtf.

If it is that cheap I WANT!!!!

Then I was thinking, confirm sure fake one but he said it’s some sort like reject wor. He even said Crocs going to close down in Malaysia?! Are you sure??

Well, I don’t mind buying fake one since I can’t afford an original one. As long as it is wearable and looks 90% alike what (beruk said so too).

Nothing much can be done for a cheapskate and very very broke girl ~~yes, I still consider myself as a girl NOT a woman okie. Like what Britney says, not a girl not a woman yet WTF~~ like me.

Except to sadly admire it in pictures.

ALICE RUBY RED FLATS. Longing for this last time and still am. Now and forever baby... wtf

NANOOK BROWN BALLERINA FLATS with matching fury lining. Unbelievable gorgeous!

Can you imagine what was once an ugly rubber crocs shoe everyone has back then (okie maybe not everyone but most of them) can be so creative and redefine it into such stylish flats?

At least I likey ❤

This is even hotter!!! New arrivals of LILY LJ PLAID in red and black. *drools*

DAMN! I want this chequered print flats!!!

Guess how much it cost. Effing $39.99 which means it is about RM140 or more @.@

SIGH.

In bubblegum and chocolate.

Sigh...

Sigh......

SIGH.......

My dinner FAILED miserably T.T

2009-08-06T21:27:00.006+08:00

Above words explained all.

My dinner is a disaster.

My paratha hangus like shit T.T

Below is 1 layer of lasagna. Damn the nice!

Had this on Sunday :)))

This one. For tea time on Monday I think. Guess what's in here.

And this accompanies me when I'm emo.

Yea I know. Very random.

Pixar's Up Premiere Screenings

2009-07-28T23:55:00.004+08:00

I got it I got it I got it!!!

OMGOMGOMG.

Yep, I just found out I got a pair of free tickets to watch ‘Up’ premiere screening in Cathay Cineplax Damansara =DDD woot~!

I didn’t expect to get it coz I was merely trying my luck. Here’s the story. I came to know through my email that Nuffnang is giving out free tickets for the premiere screening.

Being a movie buff, I wanted to watch this long ago when I first saw the trailer. And it is free what; you are not a Malaysian if you do not want it. wtf.

The dog so cuteee!

There are four bloggers giving out 20 free movie passes each and all you have to do is to wait for them to blog about it and then do what they want you to do in order to get the tickets. And so I was keeping an update on these bloggers to give out their shares but I was too late T.T

Then when audrey (I do read her blog once in a while), the blogger who was the last one to give out her share, she wants us to tell her true funny stories that can cheer her up. I didn’t plan to write in as I can’t think of any real funny story. So I gave up.

I guess luck was with me the other day when I actually saw audrey in person for the first time in my life. I went to this DUMC’s concert which was really awesome (I’ve taken some pics, will blog about it another time IF I’m rajin enough). She was just right in front of me and I was like “Hey isn’t that the fourfeetnine girl?!!”

That moment, I can’t believe it was her (I confirmed it was her because she was with timothytiah. LOL) I even went up and say hi to her. OMG! I don’t know what was in me that time that gave me the courage to talk to her. It was like secara tindakan refleks. She was really cute ~~and very small in size.~~

She’s so sweet to ask for my name when I told her I do read her blog and bla bla bla. Aiks, feel so jakun while typing this out. Like never seen a blogger like that. Just surprise to get to see someone in front of you when the only place you get to see them is in their blog.

It was already midnight when I was back to my room. When I was lying down on bed trying to doze off, I suddenly thought of this funny incident that happened to me during my finals. It pops out just like that and I rush to on my lappie back to check when is the closing date. Phew lucky me I still have a half day time and so I started to write out that funny incident and email it to her.

Then yesterday I keep checking my email (kc, thanks for borrowing me your lappie haha) but no news yet. Too enthusiastic already. :(

And just a moment ago I found out I am one of the 20 best/funny stories. WOOT~! I didn’t expect to get it. Seriously. Saja try it out for fun since I suddenly remember that funny thing. Though I keep checking my email hoping to get it, I thought there would be much more even funny stories out there.

But who knows, I am one of the lucky ones :)

Was kinda emo the whole night today. Tak cukup tido kut coz I overnight in friend’s house. But this makes me all high up though it is nothing big/important.

*Small little things made my day :)

I've been a bimbo todayy :))

2009-07-25T22:19:00.005+08:00

Yep. Bimbo bimbo that’s what dummel calls.

Pictures were taken when I’m on my way back to KL with bro this morning. Followed him up cause I need to settle some stuff in college.

Not gonna stay long though. Need to get back to Taiping before Thursday for my QTI. Oh God my driving still sucks. How?!!!

Drove my bro’s car yesterday night and right after we got out from the car my mummy asks how was it; and bro said one word, “FAIL!”

T________T

How am I going to pass my driving test. wtf wtf wtf.

God please help me up and make me a better driver pleaseeee :(

Anyway here's a very interesting pig I want you to meet. If you know me well, I love cute piggies stuff ❤

Notice anything??

Well it is too hard not to notice that protruding thingy huh.

Belongs to my bro. So cute. It can even vibrate when u pull that hanging thingy.

ROFL.

Life is a maze though

2009-07-23T23:02:00.002+08:00

I’ve been back in Taiping for almost 2 weeks. Having break for 6 weeks :)

Was raining while on the way back home.

Many were asking how come so fast break when I just started my 1st semester in mid May.

=____________=

It is because my intake started off with the short sem thus the break, which I am so happy when I found out I have such longgggg break ❤❤❤

I've planned some stuff but never did achieve any of it T.T
X Find a part time job
X Polish my English by taking up some intensive language class
X Hiking in Maxwell Hill
.....and the list goes on with those small little things that matter to me.

I’ve only manage to go learn and get my driving license. Hopefully by the end of August I will get my P license. No, should be I must. Yesh I MUST !!! That’s a promise to myself.

Currently I have finished 6hours of the 12hours driving practices. I am scared I will fail cause I am still not that steady :(

Any kind people out there willing to borrow me your car and teach me some skills? So I can passed the JPJ test without a sweat. I’m always so blur and I can’t really concentrate on the road. Damn, I’m suck at driving T.T

Can I have a more exciting and challenging break? I am so bored at home. No one to hang out with, everyone parted to different places. Don’t get me wrong I still love being at home, relaxing and enjoying every sweet little moments of my break. But when you get too much of it you’ll be craving to go out and get some sun and fun!

Dammmmn I need to get my P license done sooner! I want to do so many things before I get started with my 2nd sem.

I need to stuffed myself with more foods too. I’m craving for laksa, ice kacang, char keoy teow, chee cheong fun and the list just won’t stop. Also pizza hut, saw their promotion today in the newspaper. Gosh, so cheap and it look so delicious. Needa be fat fat fat! Gain gain gain!

It is very true that absence makes the heart grow fonder. I don’t want the time to pass so fast though I am doing nothing every day. Just stay it that way.

And there’s a bunch of movies I’ve missed. The last I had watched was Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince. Am waiting for pixar’s Up which I think it will be very nice. Even reviews said it is awesome. And The Taking of Pelham 123, Skrip 7707, Lost of The Land…….so gonna pokai.

In the past 2 weeks, I did some little things to pass time. Lame little things.

1. Did egg mask to nourish and pamper my worn out skin.

To moisture and have a natural healthy complexion, use the egg yolk.

Put it on for 15minutes and then wash it away with cleanser. See how I look like with the egg yolk on -__-

Use egg white if you want to tighten your pores and whiten your skin.

I got to know this thanks to yape's blog. Thanks yape :) And she get to know it from another blogger that gives out advices about beauty and make up tips. Check it out here. It is really useful especially if you wanna learn how to start applying basic make up and also eyeliner.

2. Made fluffy pancake.

Without mummy's help okie. I did it all by myself. Though it's kinda out of shape. Not the typical round shape.

But it was really sedappp. That's what matter only :D

3. Tried to curl my hair using papers instead of those curlers or rollers.

But FAILED miserably T.T

Also learned it from the blog I've mentioned above. It is so easy, cheap (since you need papers only) and healthy for your hair.

Check it out here.

I was too impatient and took it off. Thus, it doesn't curl the way I want it to be. It look so rough like an old auntie's hair T.T

Looks like my hair worn out too.

Can you see how amazing a strip of paper can curl your hair that way. I will try it again next time.

4. Cam-whored as much as I like :DDD

5. Do stupid faces to keep my life entertaining. wtf.

6. Also act nerd to encourage myself to study more. wtf wtf.

How ridiculous more I could be.

7. Guess what. I found this sms from my dad's phone while I was bluetooth-ing pics from his phone.

WTF is this?!!!

Caught in the act or was it just from a wrong sender??

@_@

and there she starts feeling it again

2009-07-06T22:21:00.004+08:00

I know, update sudah kurang. Sebab moodku tak tentu arah the past few weeks.

I’ve been thinking a hell lot.

Many things changed.

But I’m not moving forward.

Been wondering why and am still wondering.

Trying hard to hang on when disappointment is all I get.

Trust you? Nah.

Only He that I am counting on.❤

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Following are just random stuff I did past few weeks.

went to Bukit Jalil.

gaik yean's cousin's bbq partay. i pi tumpang makan. terpaksa, naik gain weight ni.

found this cute yellow chicken that makes funny sound while shopping.

Mr Teppanyaki in Bukit Jalil's Carrefour.

craving this but NOT nice.

sambal fish.superb.

sambal sotong. lagi superb.

Thought Mr Teppanyaki suppose to serve japanese foods. Weird.

kena influence by her. almost every midnite we buy mcd's ice cream❤

dah lama tak senyum gitu gembira. bukan kerana dia.

*It's hard to actually be happy for real, it's harder to have it last longer. Life's a bitch. Seriously.

Stress wehh

2009-06-16T23:27:00.004+08:00

Wehh hear the song I recently upload?

You can't not hear it cause I make it auto play nya ha ha.

Nice not nice not??

Currently crazy with this song, love her voice so muchie!

Another local artist,Zee Avi *claps claps*

Talented I should say.

But I can't find this song, Bitter Heart!

Anyone has it please inform meee okie.

Please....!!

See, I said please.

Desperado me T.T

Malaysia ke Malaysial?

2009-06-14T17:15:00.012+08:00

Di manakah perpaduan yang sering diperkatakan..?

This and this is crazy wehh.

I got to know about it yesterday night when mummy called me. She told me someone out there kena chopped and I was like wtf such sensitive issue occurs in my very own area, Kamunting?!! Taiping gonna be a hit again. Hah!

The Gadoh movie I was talking about in my previous post struck me. What happened back home make sense all of a sudden. But this time it is the Malay VS Indian instead of the Chinese.

Come on people, we are all Malaysian not Malay, Chinese, Indian or whatever shit you named yourself. We don’t judge based on skin colour please ~~though sometimes I might be a little stereotype not because of racist larr of cause what I meant here is those attitude problematic budak.~~

But this fight erupts because of ethnic tensions (from what the media stated). You know I know larr.

I really want to know the whole story back there, what misunderstanding could lead 16 years old and above youngsters fight till masuk ICU. Surf through net for sure won’t get me the juicy info I want. A friend of mine said a Malay female got killed too. Wonder it is true or not. Ganas giler wehh. Perempuan pun kena??!

He look so Indon here xoxo.

Hey go vote for him here. MUST VOTE okie. wtf.

I am going back next Friday hopefully by that time everything cooled down. Mummy and her friends plan to go swimming in Bukit Jana today but were cancelled. Her friend chickened out. wtf.

Starstruck perhaps?

2009-06-13T00:12:00.008+08:00

Okie the title of this post might be exaggerated but who cares..?!!

Confession: I had fallen in ❤ with ZAHIRIL ADZIM 0_0

*STARSTRUCK!*

Gawd! He is so cute in a way that I like. Petite but cheeky. And ohh, he has a mole under his lips XD

Cut the crap. I guess you guys are wondering who the heck is this fella. If you are a fan of our local industry film you might know who he is.

I just got back from their screening, Gadoh in my college’s theatrette. Awesome movie I tell you!

Gadoh is a feature film that explores the perception of our identity and also the racist happening in our own backyard. I never had seen a film that can capture such real situation that is happening all the while in our so called “harmony” country.

You get to relate to it as you are watching it. Seriously. It truly reflects what we gone through back then during the school days. Maybe not that violent like the movie larr. You just have to watch it!

Sadly, it won’t be screening widely in our local cinemas. That is not their main focus though. I bet the film will kena censored habis-habisan if it go on the mainstream. They only screen it in colleges or places where they get invited of course but do not worry I think they having plans to go further with the film. Hopefully =/

My another new friend cum housemate cum course mate, Rosemary who accompanied me there. Thanks babe.

The weird looking me.

Good news: I was so crazy about it that I bought the DVD. It cost RM15 only. I wanted to share it with my beloved kawan-kawan gua next week when I am back home. Suuwa, I am counting on you to rate it. You know why =)

Bad news: I think I got conned. There is no DVD to be seen when I open up the case of the DVD. wtf wtf wtf! ~~I mau pi complain besok, mungkin ade chance borak ngan itu cute actor. wtf.~~

Here he is. Cute not cute not?!!! Okie maybe not here but he is sooo cute in person ^^ and I look so horrible here *shy kut*

Here's another lead actor of the film, Nicholas Davis. He's more good looking in real person than in the movie though. Rosemary likes him. HAH!

Sorry, pictures are all so blur. Blame Nick cause he’s the one taking the pic with my handphone. So nice of him. I didn’t know the crew and the cast of the movie were coming for the screening so I did not bring my digi cam along.

The cast and the crew of Gadoh. Q&A session.

Aww, Nick was looking while I was taking this pic. So cute right! I think he is mix.

Take a look at Gadoh Trailer here and I found Zahiril's blog.

p/s: I got his autograph too. wtf right I am so crazy.

p/p/s: Ehh pei, I think you'll like him too he has this bad boy look you can't resist XD

p/p/p/s: I am so sad about the DVD case. How can such mistake happened..?!! I adore Gadoh so much T.T My first time getting so excited about a local film wehh.

Moodswing giler wehh.

2009-06-12T17:43:00.003+08:00

Entah mengapa.
Tiba-tiba je aku nak tulis dalam B.M.
Teramat susah sungguh hari ini.
Rasa menyesal tak juga.
Stress kut.

Aihh kehidupan ni,
Kadang kala celaka betui.
Harap sangat nak jadi halimunan,
Kekejaman realitiku susah diketepikan.
Aduhai hidupku ni T.T

Bila akan ku capai kebahagiaan yang dikatakan..?!!

I need a breakthrough.

2009-06-06T18:27:00.013+08:00

Oh my ~ ~ ~!
Midterm exam is on Monday!
>.<

And I am here again blogging. wtf. I am suppose to be studying right now!!!

See, I always blog at the wrong time. I should study now! And when I am super super free I DON’T blog pulak. wtf.

Why so fast exam? WHY..?!!!
This is only my third week of my first semester. Yet I have assignments, quizzes, oral and group presentations coming soon. Real sooooon!!!

See!! Text book so thick some more T.T
You say larr can die not?

I think I exaggerate it. Luckily I took two subjects this semester so exam on Monday and Tuesday only. Not that teruk actually. Finals gonna be worse than this which is on July 4 T.T

But but…yesh there’s a but that keeps me going. After finals I’ll be having 6weeks of break. HAH!
Be positive be optimistic now :) Hopefully ma babes who are going to local Uni have break after their orientation too. *hoping faithfully*

Ate this for dinner last night. Maggie mee goreng from the mamak stall below my hostel. Taste nice but expensive larr for cheapskate like me =/

And this is my lunch today. I cooked it myself okie for the first time I am here. Got to borrow the cooking pot from my new housemate that’s why only get to cook. Bought the wan tan and fish cake from Giant. I know it doesn't look like wan tan noodle. Boiled it too long =.=

Durian Pancake.

I'm craving for this more and more each day:(

Vijay went to try it yesterday under my recommendation and he said super super nice. See, my taste not bad one okie. But the after eating wouldn't be that much pleasurable I should say. Smelly burping. Really smelly!

Some random pictures I took while studying earlier.

My legs become so dark T.T
Result from walking to and fro to campus with shorts almost everyday in the hot hot sun.

My falling hairs. GAWD. Effing banyak okie T.T

What's the cause?

Stress??

I guess I consumed too much of MSG from instant noodles. sigh.

LAST PICTURE OF THE DAY:

STRESS WEH ! I want some H :(

Ylenol tey detnetnoc ..

2009-05-31T23:31:00.007+08:00

Heyy I’m in the mood to blog now. I know. A few of my babes pestering me to blog but you know me too well. I am a lazy biatch that loveees procrastinating and very very expert in doing unimportant stuff too much. I can’t seem to change this all-the-while-habit.

Sigh.

I told myself I want to change it when I start studying here but to no avail, nothing has changed. NOTHING! And I start spending and lepak a whole lot! Die larrr. I think I need to find a part time job in order to survive the way I spend. I have so many stuff in mind that I want to buy T.T

Always go here and there. Yeshh that is what I am going to blog about now. Hmm, let’s see what I’ve done in the past two weeks I’m here.

Oh yea remember the make-up workshop I mentioned in my earlier post? Was good overall, the speaker was indeed a professional skin specialist and I gained some tips =D

FYI, it was a guy and he has a perfectly GOOOOOD skin you know and also kinda good looking. wtf. Nahh here’s the pic of him and his Clinique products. I lazy wanna elaborate much about the workshop. Awesome part was that I get a free goody bag worth RM200!!! But it doesn’t look like it worth RM200. You’ll know why when you see the goodies below.

Sorry for the blurness. I actually zoomed it to the max cause I'm sitting quite far away and when I don't use flash it won't be sharp =( my hand shakes.

This is the Zimbabwe girl I was talking about. Rufaro. She is so daring and went straight up for the experiment.

This is the goody bag.

Instant facial mask+free makeover voucher+lip gloss= RM200?? Got or not..?!!

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Finally I get to go to Times Square to try out the newly open Krispy Kreme. All thanks to Vijay for waiting for me. Sorry for all the trouble I cause ehh. At least we make it there.

But we were damn disappointed with the few choices of doughnuts available and it is too sweet. Still prefer Big Apple, at least more choices and cheaper by 50cents. Ehh 50cents a lot okie though I am quite cheapskate at times. Do the math and see!

Nicest for me would be the cheese with wholemeal crumps. That is the only one that is not too sweet.

Just two weeks and I have been to Mid Valley for the third time already. You say larr, like that how not to overspend???

I am very surprise of what I've eaten cause i finish RM150 in three days time just for food. wtf! Lucky I got my own savings or else you will see me begging on the street asking for money.

See see.. I some more go buy a sandal. Can't resist the temptation plus Junn, the first new friend I get to know during orientation said it is very nice on me and pester me to buy it. She said must be 'chong dong' once in a while. And she's the one jio me go shopping.

Junn, thanks to you I am now broke wehh. ~~The truth is I spent more on food not her fault but still I wanna say you la ice cream monster~~ :P

Nice not nice not??! Nice right.*answer myself*

Effing ❤ it okie.

Plus this is the first sandal I actually bought for myself. Literally. I got it with a good deal as well. It was on 50% sale that day. Everything is on sale currently.

I got more pics of food to show you guys but am very sleepy now having class tomorrow morning. Die larr I haven't even start my term project. Just kill me please!

Short Update

2009-05-19T23:20:00.003+08:00

I realised I haven’t blog anything yet about my college life. Many things happened but you know me, I am too lazy to blog as always. Just let me summarise what I’ve gone through for the past week.

Met some nice friendly friends during orientation and guess what I got to know a Zimbabwe friend. She is so cool in the way she speaks with those accents. Just love her husky kinda voice and every day we would go to class together cause our schedule are the same. It is like fated you see as we did not know we choose the same tutorial and on the first day of class I bumped into her when I’m on my way catching a bus to the campus. Since then, we are always together. And she’s a Christian *glad glad*

Classes are quite interesting as well. I’m only taking two subjects this semester because it is a summer semester. So nice right only need to study two subjects. But I need to get at least 3.0 ark!!! Scholarship is not that good after all for people as lazy and dumb like me. T.T

And I never know Help is so active in side activities since it is not that famous like Taylors or Sunway. It is a good thing for me so I can occupy my time with all these activities :D There’s a model search going on currently though it is for Help’s female students only. They called it “Runway 101”. Seems interesting ain’t but no way I am going to join. I am so short to be a model larr. Langsung takde model look pon. T.T And in conjunction with it, Clinique is going to give a free 1hour make-up workshop tomorrow and whoever attend it will get a goody bag worth RM200. Woot~! I am so gonna go for it and learn some tips on make-up perhaps? ^

and that's how agitated I am for tomorrow!

Well, that's all for tonight. I need to get some rest as tomorrow class starts effing early like 8am and i need to wake up at 6.30am. wtf!

What A Day

2009-05-17T20:58:00.006+08:00

I’m back to KL. Sigh.
Tomorrow gonna be the first day of class. Am looking forward though =D
Hopefully there’s cute guy for me to ‘cuci mata’. wtf.

You know what. Today is the worst day of the week.

Feeling groggy when I woke up early morning today, catch my bus at 9am and were asleep all the while through the journey until I did not realize my slipper skated itself to the other passenger sit. Malunya.

And there is this stupid pervert Malay guy kept looking to my side. I don’t know whether I’m too sensitive or what but you can sense okie when a fella stared at you nonstop! Make me damn moody sial. I should have turn to him and said ‘Apa tengok tengok, tak pernah tengok perempuan kah?!’. wtf.

Then when I reached Pudu, my brother was nowhere to be seen though I called him when I passed the toll. Ishk. Damn slow one. I called him another time and he said he just only come out from his room so he asked me go for lunch myself first. And so I went to toilet and had my chicken rice in Pudu and while on the way there my thigh got burn by another stupid Malay guy’s cigar. Do you call it burn or what? I don’t know. Stupid guy. Want smoke then smoke further a bit la. wtf wtf wtf!

See, what have you done to my skin..?!!!

My bad day does not end there yet. When finally my brother came which was after an hour plus plus-.- ~~I wonder where did he go~~, my left big toe kena run down by my bro’s car tyre. wtf wtf wtf! Damn pain okie my feet kena squeeze like this. Lucky no bruises if not I gonna ask for medical fees from him.

And guess what, he suspect that he got chicken pox. He showed me those small small ‘pox’ around his hand, neck and face. Lol. So nice. I want to get it also but always wrong timing. Tomorrow I gonna start my class ler I can’t afford to get sick now! But I seriously wanna get it as it will get even worse if you get it after you’re passed 30. I am not joking my mum’s friend got it when she was in her thirties or forties and only after 3months she gets better but the chicken pox’s scar was still there and lasted for almost a year or so. MY GAWD!!! I don’t’ want that to happen to me.

And fyi, my sista, brother and me still haven’t get it yet. Should I sacrifice my studies and go get near my brother to get it??! Sigh. I don’t want to suffer later on.

Penang with Babes

2009-05-17T17:30:00.008+08:00

I decided to go back home the day after orientation as there are some ‘unfinished business’ to solve =D

Took this opportunity to continue my driving kursus in Sepakat and woo hoo I get to drive for the very first time. ~~Okie maybe not first time lar since I illegally drove my mum’s car once and nearly kiss the front gate.Oops.~~

The most happening would be hanging out with my babes. Was a last minute plan actually yet it works. WOOT~! The babes are sow ann, jo my ‘lou kong’, fatima, fern and our long time no meet mama wen and mama leng. Glad to meet up with them so I guess it is worth it to come back Taiping :)

Enough craps. I’m too lazy to write much about it. Just look at the pics we took there.

We took ferry to Penang. Saw those cargoes opposite?? Sow ann called it boxes. =.=

Sow ann with her macho pose. =.=

and again, wanna act cute konon. Hyperactive budak.

and this guy was just a random shot while on the way to QB. HE SLEEPS LIKE A PIG I TELL YOU!

We actually go QB for foods and NOT shopping. Wanna try this T Bowl Restaurant.

I know. It's outdated news. I never been there yet marr.

Shower is provided too. aha.

Soup with garlic bread. Damn stingy give half bread only =.=

Dumplings that taste like shit. Seriously, there's this weird taste like shit smell.

Cheese Bake Rice in a toilet bowl. So cutie.

Ramen Tom Yam. Not bad.

Spag with mussels. Looks are deceiving you know but it does taste nice.

Bread with banana and honey.

Ham and cheese sandwich with cute yellow umbrella.

Shit ice cream. LOL.

Honey dew ice cream. Don't order this, not worth it!

A thing we always do. Cam whore before leaving =D

After that, we went to Sakae Sushi. Was rushing so did not take any pics there. The one in QB does not taste as nice as in The Curve I tried last time. Disappointing =/ I can't believe I did not shop for anything there for the very first time. WOOT. I guess it is a good thing that I finally get to resist temptation though I found something I like in MNG. Damn.

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On Saturday night, mummy's friend birthday so went there for dinner. I need to eat as much as I can before I go back. Need to save much in KL man. Like what my friends there always say. In KL everyday 'ngai min bao'. It's true.

Guess what...

I spotted this two kids have something going around.

Yesh, puppy love. Awww~ so sweet aint?!

It remind me of the old days when I were in kindergarten. How things were so simple and easy. Sigh.

I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-C-E is the word for today.

2009-05-12T23:04:00.011+08:00

Yeah baybeh! Today is my big day. Like FINALLY. Gosh I waited for this day since ages and there it goes my FIRST DAY OF INDEPENDENCE in the heart of our beloved city, Kuala Lumpur. All the while, I wanted to study in KL, experience how life would be in a private college and NOT PUBLIC UNI! No specific reason of why I want it. It just somehow I wanted it yet not having the chance to do so. And *poof* God did a small miracle and got me a scholarship. Woo hoo!

I’m really really really (you see, when I stress a word a couple times I do mean it!) grateful to get a scholarship and thanks to The Star it got me this far :)

Until now, at this moment I still can’t believe I got a scholarship! I am not that quick smart intelligent material you see. I consider myself as an average in scoring student and yet here I am. No doubt He is Almighty God and nothing is impossible for Him. If not because of Him I don’t think I am this lucky.

*am in a happy+glad+thankful+excited+nervous+worry mode*

Happy because finally my wish came true.
Glad because I get to study the course I’m interested and not getting a NO NO from daddy.~~he was not supportive on me taking this course~~
Thankful because He loves me so much though I sinned so much.
Excited because tomorrow is the orientation :))
Nervous because I am going to experience a brand new day tomorrow.
And worry because I might screw up meeting people from all walks of life =/

All in all, I just wanna pen down what I feel on the first day of my blessed life. Praise the Lord! You rock my life =D

Don't look back, just follow the tune of your heart and by the grace of God He will lead you through :)

p/s: To all my dearest friends, thanks for all the good luck wishes and I am missing all the fun moments with you guys now T.T

and there it goes again...

2009-05-10T00:33:00.005+08:00

GAWD~!

A message from USM:

“ Sila hadir temuduga Program Komunikasi, USM pada 10 Mei 2009(8.00pg) ……” and so and so which I am lazy to type all out.

Got the interview for the same course I am going to study in HELP.

So is this lucky or whaaat...??!

And why do I have this guilt pang all of a sudden??

Did I make a right choice by taking the scholarship??

Will I regret later on??

You see, 3 more days to go before the orientation which is on the 13th of May and here I am still uncertain about it. wtf.

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Michelle’s dad bought a puppy for her. How sweet. And I’m envy though I do not want a puppy right now cause I am too lazy to have another’s live to carry with me. Maybe later on when the time comes. You know, when you feel that you are mature enough to take the responsibility and so. I hate those hangat-hangat tahi ayam people who adopt a pet and then ditch it when they are sick of it. Eh please, it has life too you fucking ignorant people. See what happen in Pulau Ketam. Sigh. Pity those doggies.

Okie enough crap. Here’s Hunter, the hush puppy. Gosh I wonder why she named it Hunter. I suspect maybe she has this crush on a guy name Hunter. OMG.

Damn hyperactive.

And it's a He. Love to bite too.

Trying to lure him with his toy.

Why make such face. Michelle abuse you??

After that, I met up with Cyndi and Yee Van for some ice kacang in Larut Matang. Darn hot these days make me craving for it. I think I will go da pao Taiwan's ica kacang tomorrow after church. Damn nice it makes you go crazy for it to the last bit.

The tallest one of course is cyndi's one. I think she still trying to get taller xP

Excited Yet Reluctant :(

2009-05-08T02:11:00.005+08:00

Yeah, that is what I am feeling right now.

5 days to go...

*MIXED EMOTIONS*

And I haven’t start packing nor preparing stuff I need.wtf.

I’m always last minute. Procrastinate hard.

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot.

Wonder about the impossible(s) that became possible.

Still, I am grateful for what I got :)

*I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

Precious Day ❤

2009-05-02T20:46:00.011+08:00

Just came back from hiking in Maxwell Hill . Super nice :) I get to sweat so much and it feels good. I always think those are bad sweats where you need to let it out once in a while rather than just peeing. My own 'theory' larr. wtf.

Hiking almost 2hours using the short cut and it’s my virgin attempt (“,) Dad brought us (me, sista and the big guy) up and surprisingly he discovered new route which is a BAD NEWS FOR US T.T

New route =Longer track !!!

Half way through I thought I can’t manage it because it was really tiring. The steps are steep and sloppy.

While trying all my best to hike further up, I notice there are these small square papers every steps along the track. It reminds me of the Hansel & Gretal story. I guess someone purposely did that to guide someone as a direction.

Look at this:

Sista and the big guy a.k.a sista's bf. LOL.

Sis, don't get angry when you see this. The big guy. LOL.

FINALLY… FINALLY!!!

After an hour and half or so, we finally make it. Relieved man when I saw the tar road to go back down. Like a small girl gets something she really really wished for a long long time!

Not far from where I came out, saw a pondok decorated with those Chinese New Year tanglung. Interesting huh??

Few uncles were resting.

and.. I start to cam-whore.

Yea, V.A.I.N. i know. wtf.

My face turns as red as a tomato. Gosh.

Took this with my Handphone's cam. Not bad huh for a 2.0 mega pixel ^^

Trying to be emo. Sista took this ( Tak tau ambik wan) :P

Sista and the big guy went down using the tar road while me and dad use the slope (short cut) cause more challenging mar.

All the while I’m waiting for the coronation to open. It’s been more than a year it was closed down for renewing and renovation. And now it look so high class. I wonder how much will they charge this time. Last time it only cost RM1 per person and you can swim how long or how much time you want. So nice. Sigh. Those days.

But... I might get to go in for FREE when it reopen :) The owner or somehow the one who administrates the coronation pool were one of my Maxis customers and also my dad's friend. See, connected somehow. He He He. Hopefully it opens before I'm away from here. Sigh.

I notice my face is imbalance larr somehow. Plus that crooked smile. T.T

❤sista and me ❤

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On another note, this morning we ( sow ann, yee ping, fatima, sue fern and me with my mum) were helping in a Charity Fair selling foods. Every year there will be a Charity Fair during Labour Day to raise fund for the ESDA which caters for the drug addicts, senior citizens, OKU and single mothers. I think I should do more of such thing cause I feel glad getting to know that I can help others though I can’t help them financially =) Best part is we get certificate for helping. So cool ❤

We were selling ice candy, bo bo cha cha and also creamy wedges.

I guess there are more than 200 of it. I think.

This is one of the food sold in the Charity Fair. My innovative creation. wtf. Looks like a head skeleton ain't?

And this one taken by my sista when she and the big guy were walking down using the tar road. Love it. See, how nice our nature is. Why would those uncivilised people do not appreciate it...!!!

Water Under the Bridge

2009-05-01T23:58:00.001+08:00

All of a sudden, I remembered something peeps.

Remember what we planned for May 1??

Remember the days before STPM when we were crazily excited to do something??

Something that we thought might happen??

I guess you peeps know what it is already huh??

How funny we were then.

I missed those moments.

Sigh.

Unsuccessful plan. Our oh-so-trademark~.

Yet another emo scribbling

2009-04-25T23:58:00.004+08:00

Yesh, I feel so useless once again. Don't get me wrong. Nothing happen, did not get into any trouble/problem or whatsoever. Just feeling a little sober perhaps? I need a break once in a while too people. ~~But I thought I’m having a long break now shaking legs at home.~~ So what is wrong with me uh? Somehow I don’t know. I REALLY DON’T KNOW.

One word. Inexpressible.

Too many decision making to make yet too little time :(

I DON’T WANT TO GROW UP! IT IS JUST TOO SOON.
I WANT TO GO BACK TO MY CHILDHOOD WHERE THERE IS NOTHING TO WORRY OR DECISION TO MAKE!

Perhaps I’m scared being independent, being responsible. Something that is emotionally difficult to bear when all I want now is to stay the same as it is. I hate changes. I dislike the feeling of having something big, heavy burden to carry behind.

But when reality strikes me, I know that is what every single homosapien have to go through. Life sucks. It does. But somehow I know I need to be optimistic. I need to be tough. I need to learn to adapt and be grateful for everything He has given to me YET I don’t want to grow up so soon. T.T My heart begs to differ!

I guess what I really need now is a company to hear me rattle all day long about my worries. A heart to heart talk perhaps? Cause I seriously need some words of encouragement to get me going.

Lord Jesus,

I need You. Thank You for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life and receive You as my Savior and Lord. Thank You for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Take control of the throne of my life. Make me the kind of person You want me to be and lead me throught it Lord. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

She just can't take her eyes off

2009-04-11T01:36:00.001+08:00

THESE..!!!

Bought all these for supper :)

and a 100plus to cool down her sore throat

chee cheong fun from siang malam. I was craving for it in my previous post.

"Ha Gao" and "Siu Mai" from siang malam too. Damn ex. Cost RM3 each and does not taste that nice. wtf.

That chua sow ann made me buy this. ~~A~~ctually I can't resist the temptation when I know there's dim sum in siang malam. How lame can I be.~~~~

Can't Get Enough of It :)

2009-04-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

Yea. The chicken baked with potato. Syiok giler!

No more mozzarella cheese. Kraft cheese as substitute, so kena burned :(

Actually it was a recipe from Rachael Ray's show. Bah!

Leftover for the next day. I added more cheese on top =D Look somehow like melted durian's flesh huh.

plus long beans with sambal. PERFECT MATCH.

Don't know why lately craving for many kinds of food. Having a mild sore throat tend to make me want to eat lotsa foods I don't know why. Is it a disorder or some kind like psychological behaviour? wtf. Such thing exist? One moment I was craving for egg tart then the next second I was thinking of chee cheong fun. I thought only pregnant woman do that? But one thing I'm sure of was that when you get sick you tend to wanna eat stuff that you NOT supposed to touch! True??

Chicken Baked with Potatoes

2009-04-09T20:12:00.002+08:00

Mouthwatering huh?

It is effing delicious I finished it up.

Okie, I lied. Only 3/4 of it.

*prays real hard so I get more fat cells*

Nothing Better To Do

2009-04-07T18:38:00.008+08:00

So I might as well join in the crowd.

Have your say.

VOTE FOR NIZAR!

Yes, you are right. I am supporting Nizar.

No, you’ve been conned. I don't give a damn about the by-election held today. Plus it is already past 5pm. Voting closed. Ha ha.

Just that

Yes, I am bored of being bored. wtf

BOYCOTT UTUSAN MALAYSIA, says Nizar a.k.a Mr. Koh a.k.a my dad =.=

My dad is currently in the midst of the on going political issues. Ah, I hate it. What is so nice going around everywhere asking for votes and hearing all those so-called-ceramah which bring no benefits but to gain fame and power. ~~As if all those 'sheets' you politics said were meant for the benefits of our people like that.~~ For me, it is just a bunch of noisy annoying insects giving speeches in the mid of no where. (Cyndi, I guess you experienced it so many times that you might lost count huh) Taman Kaya is always the victim for such event. Lol.

But one thing, I like seeing what 'creative ideas' these supporters have in mind and tries so many ways to convinced the people to vote for someone in particular. Just like this boycott Utusan Malaysia T-shirt. I love it cause the cotton of the shirts so nice to wear. Dad gave it to me cause it was size S. See, I get free stuff out of all these happenings. *winks*

I guess my mum is the one who will be worrying a lot cause my dad did not come home for dinner these past few days. And yesterday he broke a new record wehh. He only came home at 3.33am. Whoa. I guess he was helping around with today's election in MPT Hall. I bet he won't be home tonight if PKR wins. wtf I am so evil.

I am so bored. Going depressed soon. T.T

Fishy Fishes

2009-04-06T20:04:00.010+08:00

In the mood of blogging today :)

I broke my previous record of waking up at 3pm. *claps*

Today, I manage to stay asleep until 5pm. 15 hours of holy shit??!!! Been in a few sweet dreams, maybe that is why I am reluctant to get back to reality. Ah, such sweet that my precious saliva wet up a small little corner of my pillow.

NO it is not disgusting alright. It is normal what don’t tell me you never spilled any of your saliva ever before?? !

NO of course you do not deserve to know what I am dreaming about. It will remain as my darkest secret =x

My daily life is getting even more miserable than ever. Repeating the same routine every single day! Eat, bath, online, watch drama, sleep FULL STOP. Can depressed wehh. Then become psycho. End up staying in some shitty rumah sakit jiwa waiting for the day to get bunga kekwa. Perfect sekali.

So to not get going with those kinda life, I plan to do something else. After makan I went behind to visit my dad’s fish pond. The last time I was in there were like 2 months ago, during CNY. Remember I blog about how me and my cousins all helped out to catch all the fishies. Damn fun wehh.

Come to think of it, the pond is just right behind my house but I only been there not more than thrice! This proved how much I stayed locking myself in my room all the while. That is why I always said I have no life at the moment T.T

While walking to the fish pond, saw this birdie in a MOUSE TRAP?! how funny -.-

My dad is not trying to trap mouse but this little birdie. Turn out it was trying to eat the small fishies from the pond.

It looks pitiful here, like begging to me to let her(I think it's a female?) free.

Any idea what type of bird is this? I like the blue-coloured feather.

Here are the pictures I took to past time. Cute little fishies.

Half of the fish pond.

Deli, guarding the fishes faithfully.

I love these tiny stones used to be in aquarium ones. With different types of colour.

Dirty pond.

Don't ask me what fish is this. I can only say it is one of the fishes my dad rear.

cute little fishies.

This one I know. Cat Fish.

I wonder how come it was given the name of cat fish?

Does it look somehow like a cat with those long thingy I don't know what it is called??

Another type of fish?? I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW.

look like a small shark? Ha ha.

Cat fish's tail.

Transparent fish hiding in the corner. LOL.

Cat fish. Close-up.

Smaller cat fish

This small fishes remind me of Ikan Bilis larr.

Cat fish again. I just love capture this fish. The long thingy very the attracting.

My favourite pic among all. So cutie with the eyes like this.

The sun is going down, Deli is going to rest.

I am going to stop here too. Too bored facing the screen so long. Tired though I know I slept so much. Someone, anyone please bring me out. I need some air, some sunlight T.T

永久=不存在

2009-04-05T00:19:00.003+08:00

每次被抛弃的都是我

为什么?!!

我到底做错了什么

我时常告诉我自己

我不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有

可是

我办不到... T.T

Dont let me drown, let me down.

2009-03-26T01:23:00.010+08:00

Yea baybeh.

Don't let me drown.

Cause I ain't that strong.

*slap slap*

*back to reality*

sorry. too bored. so crapping.

Anyhow, look at this pic below :

Huey Wen, don't you think she looks like you from the back?? LOL.

I am so bored sitting at home doing nothing other than eat, sleep, bath, watch dramas on and on and oooon~!!!! zzz. I bet in the next 3 months more I am gonna be a sei ngan mui wearing spectacle 24/7. Yesh, seriously that bad okie. Sigh. I HAVE NO LIFE CURRENTLY. Even worse, NO NIGHTLIFE ANYMORE. T.T

I told myself this half year of holidays I wanna do something beneficial. Like something I can learn or gain experience from. But what am I doing now??!!! I am disappointed with myself. wtf. Sigh. No work, no life, NO MONEY!!!! Worst, no license T.T Yet, I did nothing to change it.

Went to watched 'Race to the Witch Mountain'. Overall not bad, something that I like watching. Adventurous + Sci Fiction. And the girl very pretty. I doubt she is Lindsay Lohan's cousin or any who cause she does looks like her.

Yesh, we went to New Box again. This time I am so proud of myself. Know why?? I did not touch any alcoholic. Yay~! I know I know, wtf right -.- So impossible ain't since there are few bottles on the table. But i did not drank that I swear *three fingers up* cause someone damn emo drank that and got drunk =.= you know who you are. Ha ha. I hope you learn your lesson.

I don't know what/who got her up to suddenly love cam-whoring so much. But good job, that's the way baybeh x)

middle of the high-ness. fun.

I took this. See, so perfect aint. All four of us are in wor. Aha.

Flash. I know Suwa hate it. I hate it too but like it at the same time wor. Undescribable.

Last pic. I love this somehow. Happiness written all over our faces =)

Like what I said.

Almost happy.

Yea, almost.

Bye nightlife.

Sigh.

Moment of Truth

2009-03-13T01:55:00.008+08:00

I got my result last 3 days. Finally. No mood blog about it but now don’t know why suddenly feel like updating. Was grieving for my result. Yea, grieving. T.T People said I super emo wor. People said my result not bad. People said it’s quite good for STPM level. wtf. Why I don’t think so ler?? My GPA so low! Goodness. Sigh. Damn disappointed. I thought I can get a better grade cause I expect a better result. A better expected result should be better like what I had expected ma. Why it isn’t what I expected ler…?!

I know I’m crapping. Sorry people. Need to lepas kesedihan sikit mar.

Why didn’t I study harder/smarter a bit? Now regret also no use =:::(

Sigh~!

Don’t wanna talk about result already. Everyone(you know I know who are they) also sad for it. Especially our dearest Sow Ann. I hope she’s okie. No one really wanna go celebrate cause there is nothing worth to celebrate. Just went McD for lunch after result and met Mr. Redzawan there. I fucking know he purposely come TS. Where would students hang out after result if not TS. He’s a real smart ass la I tell you. All of us got shock half way while eating McD burger when he came and said ‘Hello’ in a deep scary tone. So terpaksa tell him our results. Sigh.

A lesson to learn for the next batch of Mr. Redzawan’s students: Next time whenever results out and it is not satisfying, please don’t go to TS. Better yet to straight go home and cry the shit out of yourself.

Luckily that night didn’t just end with sadness. Got to go release tension with some people I love. I love? lol. wtf. No suitable words to describe them ler. So I think they are people I love very much :D

We went karaoke-ing but I didn’t sing a single song. Malu, no mood. I think I drank much Carlsberg and got a lil high. I broke my promise eh. I told myself I don’t wanna touch any alcoholic drink for the meantime. Guilty already. But that day I got my result mar so saddening so I don’t care much already. At least it make me stop thinking of my result and I’m almost happy. Yea, almost.

Don't know who start cam-whoring then end up got all of us in. Guys cam-whored as much as girls too -.-

~~Was a lil high thus pics were edited and to keep confidential for the sake of the people I love. People I love?? LOL. So funny.~~

These days hard to find someone that “click” to hang out with. All chao already or else not in Taiping. Sigh.

Pei, fast come back and we go starfucking again. I just love the moment we did that. And also with you Soo Wah ark! Condolence to your sista’s belle belle alright. Think on the bright side, at least she doesn’t have to suffer anymore.

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I had this for dinner today. Super freaking delicious. I cooked it myself okie *proud*

Pita bread with egg+mayo+chili sauce.

Damn yummy :D

Got another one with hash brown but too nice till i forgot to take a pic of it. I was thinking. This could save me a lot of $$ if I really go work in KL. The Pita bread did not cost much. Got 8 or 10 pieces in a packet. Then add in with anything you want. Egg, hash brown, chicken fillet, jam, peanut butter or anything. Not bad aint?? Substitute for the usual bread we always eat and it is tastier!

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Went to Sino Café last Wednesday after movie, Love Matters. Another unplanned chill out night with Jo and Sow Ann. Love it. Love the simple plain hanging out with them. And as usual we got crazy again and I think Jo wouldn’t dare to go to Sino again. Long story lazy to explain but it’s surely a memorable moment for the 3 of us :)

Oh yea, another thing before I miss out. Surprisingly the 3 of us wore the same colour of shirts that day. Orange!!!! Damn xlxt alright.

My eye bag so big T.T

Played Uno Stack. I got dared but I chickened out :( Sorry ler, if I do it I can't go Sino anymore okie.

People said they are twins. Jo and Sow Ann? ROFL okie. Small eyes+almost same hairstyle. That's why.

Sow Ann is getting girly-er day by day man. Can you believe that..?!!

Surprise surprise ~

2009-03-05T05:06:00.010+08:00

It's 5.15am now and I’m still awake. This is so not me! I know it is not a big deal but to me it is. I always have this guilty kinda feeling when its half past 3 and I’m still awake doing nothing. Just don’t know why I can’t get any sleep at the moment.

Was reading a storybook which I borrowed from Jo a.k.a my lou kong to make me fall asleep but heck no, it got me all tense up to know what’s gonna happen next and eventually… yea, I finish up the whole storybook for almost 4hours and it make me feel more energetic than before. Wtf. Romance storybooks always make girls like me go dreaming a little while =/ My mind go wandering around AGAIN! Sigh.

Suddenly feel so empty. So lonely. Emo mode is once again activated.

Somehow I don’t know why it occurs me to have the need to on my lappie and look back all the pics in my pen drive. Was looking through the pics I took when I was in Phils. I miss those moments. T.T I want to go back there, meet up everyone I miss and just hang out all night long. No worries, just have fun and get drunk! Sigh.

See, it was so much fun back then. People there are so friendly you thought you know them ages. I was just been there for 15days and we all got so close right immediately. Whoa. It was superb. You feel so warm and welcomed. ~~And I got this crush on a guy. OMG. He is so cute I can’t take my eyes of him.~~

Remember I talk about him in my long ago post. He’s the reason I don’t feel like blogging about my trips in Phils. But since now I’m not so that into him ~~I think~~ I will talk about some happening when I was there.

Hmmm, let’s see…

I’ll fast forward to the most interesting part alright. Cause I am in the mood to talk about it. ^^ I bet you guys know what I’m going to say. YES IT IS BOUT HIM. Wtf.

On the last few days when I was in Phils, I keep telling my cousins I wanna take a pic with him NO MATTER WHAT before I got back to Malaysia. I’m not hoping for anything alright just wanted a pic as memories at least. So here comes the last day of my stay in Phils and I still got nothing. Luckily we all came up with this brilliant idea of bidding me a farewell on my last night in Phils. News spread so fast that all of them came to my grandparent’s house right after dinner. Cool.

Music on and the beloved farewell party of mine started. This is gonna be the most exciting moment in my 15days there I thought. While everyone were chit-chatting away and hanging out, I felt kinda bored cause I can’t really communicate with most of them with my broken Tagalog. Sucks I know. So I just sat at a corner, mind wandering around again. Out of nowhere this guy I was having a crush on suddenly pops out and seated beside me.

*doo doop~ doo doop~*

My heart beats like hell I tell you.

Guess what, somehow I didn’t expect that one of my cousins whom I’m closest to suddenly grab my hp I was holding and offer to take a picture for us. HAHAHAHAHA~! I didn’t know she was such a genius. It was like the happiest moment I ever wish.

Take 1: I'm blushing. OMG. SEE MY FACE! It's so obvious I feel shy. Everyone was looking at us auspiciously . See that?!!!

Take 2: I can feel he was shy too. ROFL. How can this be?? HAHHAHA~

Take 3: Finally a perfect one :)

Somehow, I still not satisfy with the pics cause it look so stiff and weird. Don't you think so? I didn't know what I was thinking that moment; was like a 'tindakan refleks' and I slipped my hand towards the back of his shoulder and took another pic. wtf.

PERFECTO :))) He was happy and so does I.

This is the most extreme thing I ever did in my life. Some more in front of so many people. omg. I wonder what would he thinks of me. wtf.

Okie, here's the last pic of me and him. *blush blush and blush again*

This is so WTF man. Embarrassment to the max. Okie, I think I regretted posting this up =/ Oh man, it's 7.30am!!!!!

Emo Nemo Me

2009-03-02T23:01:00.005+08:00

T.T sobs sobs sobs…

I feel so emo lately. I don’t know why. Almost every single day I hate myself. Hate this and that. Think this and think that. Or maybe because I’m so damn free now so eventually my mind would go wandering around to pass time. My precious time. Sigh. Passes by just like that every day. T.T

I hate this. I don’t want to waste any single minutes in my life. Throw anything to me. Dramas, scandals, troubles, challenges…I don’t mind. I just don’t want to sit here in front of my beloved laptop doing nothing.

Worthless. Useless. Procrastinating.

Owh~ wtf am I talking?!!!

I so wanted to go out. Anyhow anywhere. As long as my time is occupied. And the only thing that stops me from doing so is TRANSPORT! FUCKING NO TRANSPORT!!!

I DON’T HAVE A CAR LICENSE YET UNTIL NOW. YESH NOW. 2009. I AM FUCKING GONNA BE 20 YEARS OLD SOON. WTF. T.T

Imagine that.

KOH SUSHAN DOES NOT HAVE ANY DRIVING LICENSE YET UNTIL NOW!!!

This is so saddening weh.

Okie, I promise myself before I get in to Uni or to wherever He send me to I must get my P license. Why do I feel this promise won’t get me anywhere. Sigh.

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In another note, let me tell you what’s happening in Taiping Sentral last weekend when I’m working for Dutch Lady sampling.

yes indeed its boxing ;)

I thought it was the real boxing we seen on TV but heck no, it is so much different from what I expected it to be =(

The contestants are so small in size. Damn tiny ler -.- No muscle also. And keep on using their legs not hands. I know it’s a free style fighting but… sigh. No point arguing. I guess it is more of Muay Thai than kickboxing.

see, so crowded that day.

Every floor also full of people watching. I took the pics from the first floor. Lucky me that my break is at 5pm and that's when the competition starts :)

the judges of the day.

go go punch him!!!

so tiny. o.O

copy cat of WWF???

Sorry. Pics are not clear. Was using my phone camera so what you expect ler. Some more I'm at 1st floor. Sigh. I hope I have enough money to buy a better digi cam cause the one I'm using currently, Olympus sucks. Not to say sucks la but i don't really likey. I want a Sony brand T.T

break time. almost every 5minutes they break. really so painful??

porridge with kacang. what do we call that in english. Nuts?? I don't know er. anyone know??

Had this for dinner during work. Mummy brought it for me. ^^

p/s: I seriously need a good pay job. Very the broke man. Anyone?? Intro me please. T.T

p/s: I realise today I use ---> T.T many times. wtf. And also wtf. Got influence. Shit. Getting emo these days again. Sigh.

True Friend is Hard to Find.

2009-02-24T23:25:00.005+08:00

Was having a chill out with a few friends last Thursday, the day after I quit my job. =(

Sow Ann bought some DVDs and they were waiting for my day off to watch together. So, they crashed my house when they found out I no longer working.

Love those hang-out moments with them. You know, after this all of us are going to our own different path. Sigh. Time is very very precious at the moment. You don’t know when you’re gonna meet each other anymore. And by the time you realize, they are not like the one you known them before. Time flies, people change. End of story.

Okie, let’s not go on further about it or else I might get all emo up. I bet you don’t want that to happen.

Guess what. They bought like SO MANY stuff, I mean foods. I keep stressing on the phone NOT TO BUY SO MUCH FOOD!!!!! That is just effortless. Know why?? Because SOW ANN is there. Yea man, she’s like our mother. Always worry we won’t have enough food or maybe she’s the one wanted it all. LOL.

They bought goreng pisang(which I ask them to buy), four packets of snack, ice cream and even a bottle of sparkling juice. Why do I feel they are like celebrating for the loss of my job?? Wtf.

yam~~~ seng! (notice my cup is a lil special ? ^^)

We did our usual cheers just to make fun of Fatima. Here's how:

*lift up our own cup and say 'Yam' as long as we can and then all of us will together say 'uncle uncle bus bus'*

Okie, I think some of you don't know what the heck I'm talking. It's a long story though where few years back when we went to a camp in Genting. Fatima left her bag or something I couldn't recall back and we take it for her when we came down from the bus. She did not realise it and Sow Ann was like acting 'did anyone left anything in the bus? Check and see'. Then Fatima suddenly quirk and said 'SHIT!' and started chasing the bus while saying 'uncle..uncle..bus..bus..stop!'.

HAHAHAHAHAH~! wtf.

So, that is how the cheers came up.

this is Fatima. In my room trying to watch some porn scene. Tsk. Saw it??

Pose. The five of us.

Love it when we get to chill out and have some fun. We should do this more often. And to those who are currently not in Taiping, come back faster man so we can get together before it is too late.

Sigh.

I hope our friendship is eternity.

I SAW KENNY SIA!

2009-02-19T14:06:00.003+08:00

Yes indeed. I saw someone who looks ALMOST like Kenny Sia yesterday at immigration while I was working. Got con? LOL.

I forgot to take a pic of him. If not I could post it up here and let you guys be the judge (:

I even thought he was Kenny Sia-in-disguise. =.=’

His features, body and height look almost like KS. But one thing for sure is he’s more leng chai than KS. Hahahaha~! *folds hand and pray that KS won’t ever see this*

Or maybe that’s his brother???!!!

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Bad news: I quit my job yesterday night. I love the job very much but I need to tear away because of certain reasons. Sigh. I didn’t expect I would like a job so much like this. I was in tears when I‘m on the phone telling my boss I wanted to quit. But he wouldn’t let me go (cause I’m a good hardworking worker ma^^) and ask me to continue, that he would take care everything. But I stood by my decision to quit. I tell myself not to be so softhearted again! Feel so guilty now.

p/s: Start from now onwards, I officially declared that I hate MALAYS especially those lazy immature stupid bastard!!! Fuck off please.

Fated.

2009-02-09T23:22:00.007+08:00

I was in Genting for the weekend. Reached home yesterday night. Don’t feel like blogging about what happen.

One word. PISSED-OFF!

We waited 5hours and a half and they said they don’t want waiting for STPM result students.

WTF..?!!!

Didn’t even get in to the interview room.

You say geram or not???

They should at least inform us earlier that they ‘ONLY WANT PERMANENT. DON’T WANT STPM STUDENTS!” when we passed up the form what!

WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF!!!!!!

Though I did play the outdoor and indoor games but the interview totally spoilt my mood. Was like wtf, shouldn’t have come down Genting and instead be satisfied with the pay in Taiping. And now the interview has ruined everything. T_T

*Waste money.
* Did not enjoy.
*Got into a STUPID MISTAKE EVER that I am super guilty right now. (p/s: I’m so sorry. I didn’t know it’ll get you into trouble. Haih. I hope nothing bad happen to you. )

Overall, this trip to Genting SUCKS big time. All thanks to the stupid interview and the never-ending bad luck/misfortune that happened to me and sinyee which the two of us only know. Darn unlucky man. I think it’s fated to happen. Or should I say it’s a retribution for me. I believed in karma you know. The cause and effect. You’ll get what you did now in the future. You have to repay whatever you did just like the saying ‘an eye for an eye’.

So people, always think properly before you do something. No matter good or bad. God is always watching you above, every step you take in life.

Anyway, I do have good news though. I got a job =D In Taiping of course. The pay is reasonable and it’s near to my house too. So I think I’m satisfied (:

Gonna start work tomorrow already. So fast =/ and now I’m reluctant to start working. Why is human like this? When you have no job, you complain. When you got a job, you still complain. I guess life is like that. After all, human never get satisfied what.

Attraction.

2009-02-05T00:06:00.007+08:00

Out of a sudden, I feel like blogging. Surprise aint?? The oh-so-lazy-sushan..?! =.=

Though I have many more pictures to upload but as you guys know, I AM JUST TOO LAZY. Yea, the same old excuse I always use.

But…

I have something interesting to share with you. Yesh, I meant you girls. You know who you are.(:

I thought of blogging it at our “secret thoughts”. *devilish smile * But since it is still under renovation I think la, I shall just stay right here at the moment.

Yesterday while I was trying to get a sleep (I think I have trouble sleeping lately) I somehow thought of the conversation I had during CNY with my sista and a cousin I am quite close with. The topic is WHAT TYPES OF GUY TURNS YOU ON??? LOL. I know what you are thinking now. Retarded question huh? Bear with me and read it finish will yea? You won’t regret after reading it because my so called “theory “ had been proven. =D

According to my sista, she prefers to see guys wearing spectacles and it would immediately turn her on. This explained her current specky bf. So, I guess everyone has their own ‘taste of attraction’? LOL.

Anyhow, what I am trying to point out here is that girls get attracted to guys who are similar to them in something, somehow, someway. Really.
Well, maybe it doesn’t apply to ALL the girls but for some to a certain extent.

Okie, read this.

I surveyed a few of my friends. =D

First case. She said she likes guys with small eyes. That’s where she got obsessed with Rain. =.= I hate Rain. I don’t understand why so many girls crazy of him. Back to my point, that girl has small eyes too. Like really SMALL!!!! She can’t see anything when she’s laughing. And you must not make her laugh when she is driving or else you might end up in hospital or hell. Either one. Thus, that’s explained her crush on ‘kebab boy’ (have really small eyes too). But too bad my dear friend, he’s taken. =/

Second case. She is quite tall among all of our friends and when I asked her what’s the first thing you would see in a guy, her reply was …. I bet this is too obvious to not know and if you don’t know you might consider discontinue breathing.

Third case. Same like my sista. She said she would love to see guys wearing spectacles though she herself hates to wear it all the time. And she has this weird attraction she doesn’t know why but she just loves to see guys wear super short socks hidden beneath their shoes. Then another friend of mine curiously asking her ‘So, you always ‘kap’ their legs and if they are wearing long pants you will pull it up and see??’

Fourth case would be me myself. I am always into guys who are thin and I guess I don’t need to explain why. Duh, this is even more obvious. Specifically, thin guys for me mean someone as thin as me maybe? I don’t like muscular/build guy. And I notice that almost all the guys I'm interested in are thin and small. Ha Ha.

Let’s just say if there are two guys in front of me and I have to choose a guy by appearance. One is quite handsome, not thin not fat just normal size. Okie, maybe a lil chubby.

*EXAMPLE ONLY*

And the other one is just normal looking but thin. Real thin. Just like me.

*EXAMPLE ONLY*

I definitely pick the second one. I DON’T KNOW WHY..?!! Let me clear something if you misunderstood what I mean. I don’t discriminate fat people. I don’t get disturbed being fat and I really wish/hope/want to be fat okie. Desperately! So, it does not have to do with whether the guys is fat or not fat. It is just that I got this attraction to thin guy because I am also thin.

Owh, did I just being long-winded?? Aih. Bad habits are hard to kick off.

Conclusion is : I just want to prove that my “theory” MIGHT be true.

SIMILARITIES is among the attraction between a guy and a girl.

Do you agree??

Here’s something I came up. Might be useful for the guys perhaps.

5 Hot Tips to Charm a Girl’s Heart

1. Killer smiles. That’s the TOP weapon.
Just give out one of your amazingly gorgeous smile and you will melt every girl’s heart.

2. Good sense of humour.
Surveyed and proven. :)

3. Bad boys are always in the trend.

4. Romantic + Sweet talks.
Once in a while, this is helpful. Girls love to be pampered aren’t they??

5. Last and foremost, rude must be a NO NO.
Be a gentleman pleeease.

*This post is totally based on me and my bunch of ‘naïve’ girl’s opinions and thoughts. If you find this post annoying/ridiculous/disagree/displeased with it, I am not bothered because I did not force you to read it :P

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

2009-01-30T18:40:00.006+08:00

I know I know, today is like the 5th day of CNY =.=
I am a real lazy blogger. I only blog if I have the mood cause I AM JUST TOO LAZY =/ though sometimes I really want to blog. Spill out some hot crunchy news for you guys to know. Wtf. I can’t believe I just found out one BIG HOTTTT NEWS that if you know it you might see the whole world differently. Bah~! Seriously, how come I only know it now? Though it does not have anything to do/related with me but it is truly one BIG HOT NEWS for me. Or should I say for all of us who knows what I actually mean. *evil grin* It is just OH MY GAWDDD!!!! O_O

Enough of that, I should just talk about what I did during these few days of CNY. Was working on CNY eve and even first day of CNY. Urghhh, I missed out all the fun. The reunion dinner with my family, the firecrackers, the arrival of my beloved relatives and cousin-cousin sekalian, and most of all THEY CAM-WHORED WITHOUT ME..!!!! All my cousins are in the pic and me?? Left out! Sobs! It is rarely for all of us to like meet up and get together especially on CNY because all the while they seldom come here during CNY. Very the saddening er. But this year was different. They finally made it and FOUR families get to be together in a roof. Love the gay-ish moment when everyone was chit-chatting, gossiping and updating with each other. FUN.

First Day of CNY

Finished work at 10pm and was surprised that bro was the one fetching me with a YELLOW KANCIL !!! His girlfriend’s car. I was like -________________- Fucking hate yellow okie. Some more it is the very annoying yellow! When I reach home all my cousins were not around. Saddening. End up meet them in Taiping Sentral. Plan to go Old Town but no place. =.= So, I suggest Prima Café. No place. Then went back to Taiping Sentral to watch movie. Full house. Sucks! Everywhere also crowded with homosapiens. Even Starbucks too.

In front of Old Town. Was force to take this pic -.-

cousin a.k.a rainie yang. lol.

cousins. <3

Oh yea, sister and I made a fruit cheese cake on CNY eve. First time doing it myself. Guess what. It was around 2am when we started making it. SYIOK!

Second Day of CNY

Did nothing much cause by the time I woke up it was noon already =.= Sow Ann and Jo a.k.a my beloved lou kong came for ‘bai nian’ then we headed to Pei’s house. Sow Ann totally have no sense of direction. Seriously. And me being among the directionless one(but Jo is the worst =D) actually lead them to Pei’s house. It is an improvement aint? And there is where I got to know about the HOT NEWS OF THE YEAR! Super duper delicious hot news. x)

Watched ‘The Wedding Game’ at night. Overall not good not bad but funny. And a little erotic in some scenes. Cause it is actually a family movie for this festive season and I’m surprised that it is a Singapore movie. Obscene and nudity is so not like Singapore movie would do. There is even a half-naked scene. I know I know maybe I’m overreacting. But it somehow affects my perception on it.

Third Day of CNY

Woke up and found that my cousin-cousin sekalian is nowhere to be seen. Sista went back =( while the rest were behind my house catching fishes. Yes, u didn’t see wrong. All of them were busy catching fish in my dad’s pond. Some Malay fella wanna buy all 13,000 of my dad's Ikan Keli. Bwahaha~ My dad is gonna get me a big Ang Pao *crossed finger and hope it happens*

Was excited to help which I don’t know why but it was super fun. Feel like fisherwoman you know. Haha. I didn’t eat breakfast and went straight up catching fishy for almost 3 hours. Super hardworking er.^^ Some more got time to pose for pictures. ^^

Deli. the one who 'jaga' the fishy at night.

Having steamboat at night. Mummy's open house. She invited ALL her pinoy friends and was super noisy and crowded swith all the small little kids. zzz. While me and my cousins locked ourselves up in the room. So darn sien. But but... nearly midnight that time, she-male came with dia mia kawan-kawan sekalian yang i langsung tak kenal. *happy happy* cause I got to ask about the HOT NEWS to confirm something that you know i know can already la ^^

mummy+dad and friends.

That's all for the 3days of CNY. I lazy want to continue. Chao.

Green apple guava, anyone??

2009-01-17T16:49:00.005+08:00

My work as a concubine started on Thursday. It’s been two days now but I’m still not used to it yet. Very the sien! I rather be busy doing something than standing in the cold air-cond doing nothing but shivering =/ Jackets are not allowed. Damn.

Well, off day today. My first and last off day. No more after this because of the CNY. You know, concubines are meant to serve their man but in my case it would be the customers. =D
Okie, enough about working. I know I seldom update my pity little bloggie and making you guys disappointed when you click to my blog’s link. Haha. I’m so ss. -.-

So here’s something interesting you might wanna know. When I woke up few hours ago, mum asks me to try this fruit that’s been modified..? Lol. Said to be given by my dad’s friend who was so creative enough to change a guava into an oh-so-called-green apple-shape-guava. And it tasted super super sherdappp~!! ^^

I like this green colour. and it's sweet!

i think they add sugar in it.

According to mummy, the guava's skin was peeled and replaces it with some green colouring and sugar to make it look like the shape of a green apple. I don't get it why would people want a guava to look like an apple? Though it taste not bad. It works out for guavas which are not sweet. And the green skin got the taste of the guava. I guess it's the result of hypotonic kua. You know, when the sugar+water mix with skinless guava.wtf. I feel like I am back to F5.

That's all for now. I'm too lazy to continue. Oh yea, did a not-really-works-out-surprise[though SF said she was surprised] for Sue Fern's birthday. IF I AM NOT LAZY, I'll try to blog it asap. Chao~

pretendwedontexist

2009-01-13T00:08:00.007+08:00

found this while searching for some stuff. This short clip is cute ^^ though it's only for 15 sec. Love the way it done. Simple yet meaningful aint?

Damn Streamyx!

2009-01-09T18:13:00.005+08:00

Urgghhhh~!!!!!

The connection here is so SUCKED UP!!!

Seldom been so into updating my blog and now the stupid connection just wouldn't let me upload the pictures..!

Damn Malaysia's broadband!!!

I think I need to start up an anti-Malaysia's Broadband and I'm very sure it will be a hit. *evil grin*

Can't someone please go upgrade the speed or somehow??!

The connection in Phil is even 10 times better okie. Gosh! Imagine you compare Philipine and Malaysia 's standard? How could that possible??

Real suck man streamyx!!!! I can't blog without the pics. grrr~!

Infatuation perhaps??

2009-01-06T00:39:00.001+08:00

Sorry another emo post again.

All of a sudden I don’t know what is wrong with me. I think I am in love. Lol. I know it’s crazy. I don’t even believe myself. I just realize that I really like this guy. Gosh. This is so so weird. I never thought it will be this serious. I thought it was just a crush! A mere infatuation that will not last. I didn’t know it had slowly become such important in my heart =/ I dreamed of him few times this week. This kind of stuff never ever happens to me before. OH MY FATHER GOD. I MIGHT GO CRAZY IF THIS GOES ON! He’s so far away now. I even thought of further my studies there though I know it’s impossible. Aha. God, tell me what should I do?? I hope it is just an infatuation man. I don’t wanna get into anymore of these stuffs. Goodness!!!! I am not that easily in love with someone but why does this happen to me now? I feel so lonely coming back here and he’s always in my mind. Even when I closed my eyes. Gosh, it bothers me damn lot! And he’s younger than me. Holy shit! I think I screwed myself up. I shouldn’t let this feeling hang in so long!!! Can anybody tell me what a perfect love is..??!

By the way, I had lots of stuffs haven’t blog. Don’t have the mood to blog about it cause it will only make me think back of my days with him =( can anybody tell me what can I do??!!!

Lazo

2008-12-24T16:16:00.010+08:00

Here I’m back blogging bout my trip to Phil. =D
This post was in my draft, just realise I didn't update it yet.
Went for swimming behind my grandparent’s house. It’s a resort, Lazo. Nice place for a relaxing outing. Let the pictures do the talking alright.

not bad huh?

the chalet for rent.

my cousin, Liezel. sexy ain't? ^^

the pool. [sorry for the uneven contrast]

how nice if I can stay there =/

see how happy mum was back there.

she dare me to do this. =.=

pictures not that clear.my digi cam low batt, pictures were taken using cousin's hp er.

Then my cousin suggest to take this shot.

It's like a tradition. I don't know why. Always when I'm back there, we will surely take this shot. aha~!

the lil girl name is Brunai [familiar? Brunei? LOL]

aiks, tak berjaya...

here's the perfect one ;)

I miss swimming in Phil...

and I'm missing him T.T

Phils Oh Phils

2008-12-21T19:25:00.006+08:00

I got lots of pics to post up here but can’t find time to do it. Kinda busy lately. Almost every day go out. Shop shop shop, that’s what I did this few days. LOL. And Christmas season is just around the corner, many things going on. Just love the Christmas atmosphere here in Phil. One word, SYIOK!

On the second day which is : 16 Dec 2008

Went to a shopping mall somewhere near my grandparent’s hometown. Was surprised when I get there. You need to be checked from head to toe by the security guards before you can go in. How unsafe Phils is =.=’

Anyway, lots of Christmas deco around the mall. Oh, the mall is ‘SM’ means shopping mall. But the folks here called it Santa Rosa Mall.

*hugs*

my sister's god mum and mummy.

mummy with mickey mouse? LOL.

back to childhood :D

christmas with winnie the pooh??

feels like in Disneyland...

copycat 'The Coffee Bean' ??

decors are everywhere.

The clothes in Phils are pretty cheap. Everything are cheap and nice. Real affordable. Bought 2 bags and some accessories and you still can get your change of RM 100.

Trip to Phillipines

2008-12-18T18:48:00.011+08:00

Yep, I’m in Phils now. Luckily there’s internet connection here or else I can’t be blogging right now. What makes me happier is that there’s wi-fi here!!! Don’t need to go to cyber café which I don’t really like. You know the smell and the sticky keyboard. -.-

There are two things I hate. First is the weather here. It’s damn damn windy because it’s December now and thus the dry and peeling skin I’m having now and it hurts when your skin start peeling especially the nose part. Zzz!!! Another thing is the time passes damn slow here. VERY VERY VERY SLOW!!!! =.= Even when I’m online, watching movie/drama or shopping. And I’m only here 4 days. 11 days more to go.

Here's a little update of my trip back to Phils:

15 Dec 2008

My flight was at 10.15 am. But my mum and I took a bus from Ipoh to Klia at 3 in the morning. Dad fetches us to Ipoh. Kinda reluctant to go. Cause I can’t easily get used to living in other places and not my own bed and pillow. =/ and I sensed that dad was a little moody cause he’s gonna be home alone for half month. Pity. Hahha.

Anyway, here are a few pictures I took during my flight from Klia to Manila airport.

having breakfast in Burger King before we depart.

yep, we going for MAS. patriotic aint? ahha.

love the view up here ;)

brunch were prepared for us. can choose either omelette with sosej

or nasi lemak

even have a pieces of cake, a small bun with jam, a packet of biscuit and a yogurt drink. Perfect meal aint??

view from the window: Manila city.

arrival pick-ups.

see how crowded it is. feels like they are jailed. LOL.

Finally reach my mom's hometown, Cabuyao Laguna. Took almost an hour to reach from Manila. I slept in the car. Damn sleepy ler. By the time i reach home, it's already 5+ pm and guess what. Their 5pm is like our 7/8pm -.-

its been 7years I did not return and there's a snooker in front of my grandparents house. cool.

my cousins. playing snooker.

Norman, my mum's sister's son. cute aint? but unavailable. ehe.

since it is christmas season, there are many carolings going on. They sang, danced and played those instruments.

full of lights and deco.

can u feel the christmas season??

my cousins. from left: Liezel, Mei Mei, Norman a.k.a monkey boy and Lilet.

That night, I thought I could get some rest cause I was really tired. But end up I went out with my cousins. There's a dance competition going on just a few blocks away. It's a once in a year activities during Christmas season and they asked me to joined in. Lucky I went, get to experienced how are the teenagers in Phils and how good their dance are. Quite a blast I can say. The participants were so eager and they put in a whole lot of effort in performing their dances. Colourful costumes, creative dance steps, funky combination of dances. LOL. You just got to see it to know how it was. They were so commited to it.

sorry for the blurness. Was quite far away from the stage.

i like this group. combination of hip hop+breakdance. damn entertaining!

crowded with many kinds of people especially pondans and gays. -.-

the huge christmas tree near a basketball court.

Got to know a few of my cousin's friends and even far far away cousins. some are not bad looking eh. ^^

Notice everyone wearing jackets? It's very windy during December. They said people like me might easily blown off by the wind. =( but one thing about Phils people are that they are very very friendly. Though you just know them but they'll make you feel so warm. Like you've been friends long ago. And they are funny too. True joker. aha~!

Say Bye to Black

2008-12-12T23:34:00.003+08:00

Yadaaa~!
I coloured my hair. Needed an immediate change. LOL.
Cost me a hell lot. =/ But it’s worth it since this is the first time I did something to my hair. =D
I can’t recall what the colour is but it’s something like dark copper brown. I was quite worry the day before the appointment with my stylist, even thought of canceling the appointment. I was a little bit reluctant; my black hair has been with me for 19 years!!! Haha..i know it’s lame. Just somehow I miss my ‘black shiny’ hair. =D

Okie, enough of crapping. Here’s the pictures:

before...

looks like crawling worms aint??

so kind of yee van to accompany me. thanks lo babe ;)

yee van's wig??

and after...

not really obvious yet.

Btw if any of you want to get a new look or changes, you might consider “Style”. 99.99% guarantee you will be satisfied. Go try it out. It’s the same row as “Ritz”.

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Went yum char at night. Just a small simple farewell for our little madeleine who is going to Singapore to work. Might not gonna see her for a few months. We went to Starbucks and Siang Malam later on to meet up with Huey Wen and Pei Leng who went for Lin Jun Jie's concert. [Lucky i didnt went =D]

last pic of me and pei before she chao T.T

*BYE BYE BLACK HAIR. =/

K-BOX in Sentral.

2008-12-09T23:02:00.001+08:00

It was Pei Yuan’s birthday so we planned to go sing-K in Sentral newly open karaoke centre, K-Box.
Overall, the place was not bad just a little small to fit the seven of us.

After the karaoke, I think I got addicted to it. Feel like going there again and again. Not that expensive also. But you need the right company to go only fun, for me la. Hmm, I hope she got surprise with what we had plan ;) BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI YUAN!!!! [I know it was long time ago=.= ]

okie, picture time again ::

from left: yvan, cyndi,sowann,yping,pei,peiyuan

The place was well designed. I love these wallpapers. That's the room we got at the far left end.

here's the birthday girl.

i hope she's surprise.

as usual, the tradition. cute aint??

[my couz in Phil thought her hair was a wig.hahha]

getting a lil emo? lol.

say 'ahhhhh' not 'cheese' anymore!

sow ann is getting high.

i don't know what happen here.

ahha, no comment here. it was a spontaneous act.

TIRED BUT SATISFIED.

2008-12-08T00:14:00.006+08:00

Ohhh. Had a blast last night in my house and it was awesome, at least to me. =) We called it 'FREEDOM PARTY'. Totally resemble us, the end of STPM. FINALLY! But that is just to cover up what we actually planned, to give sow ann a birthday surprise and maxie a belated surprise. Lol. I hope you guys are touched alright =D We've plan this since long ago even before our exam started and i guess this party gonna be the last happening party we ever planned. *sobs*
yes, it is indeed very saddening to come to realise that after this all of us are going off soon. Either to work, to further their studies or maybe married? 0.o Then eventually you realise that we wouldn't be as close anymore. POOFFF~! Just like that. *sigh* I hope all of us can always keep in touch no matter where we are you know. Though not always but at least once in a while we can meet up back here or even just a sms or call is enough. A simple hello and a little concern is all that matters. Seriously.

Okie, it is out of topic already. Lol. I should be telling about the party. The party was not bad, i think everyone enjoyed themselves. It just that everyone went back too soon. Real sou heng man. There's a moment i'm quite frust. Luckily the night didn't end just like that. Though the one who are overnight-ing are just yee van, sin yee, soo wah and maxie. I know,it's a weird combination when you come to think of it but i enjoyed anyway :) The movie and chit chatting in maxie's house was relaxing. Just simply very comfy. And i did not expect that we would actually to talk so much. Never get any sleep until the next morning. Gosh. Somehow, we were clicked at that moment. Aha. And pei you missed out the fun! Go Thai pulak =.=

So, all in all everything went well (;
Most importantly our plan succeeded. Almost lar okie. I'll try to update about it soon. Pictures are not with me yet. I'll haunt them soon. =x

And i come to find that..
Without mummy, the party won’t go so well and smooth. She’s the one helping behind all these. Preparing the lasagna and cleaning up while I’m enjoying. I’m touched. It makes me appreciate her more in a way that I realize all the while she treats me so good and did not complain while I’m the one always complaining this and that. She always supports everything that I want to do and try her best to help me. Though at times I think it’s annoying. Lol. I feel very thankful for having her as my mum. I seriously do. And I think I’m getting matured as I start to think about my parents and all those bla bla stuff you know. Haha. But all this of course will be kept to me myself only. So, SSSHHHHHH!!!

FINALLY

2008-12-05T00:46:00.004+08:00

ooOOOOOOOoooooh!

FINALLY.

I GOT THROUGH AND HERE COMES MY FREEDOM =D

This is the first time i'm feeling VERY RELIEVE. Very the relieve till like there's totally no pressure or burden to carry with. Those short-term stress i'm having are no longer exist. Now, i'm in the mood of enjoying and relaxing to the max i can =D

REAL EXCITED-NESS is in me. i NEED to plan, plan and plan. i really wanna enjoy the coming half year of holidays [almost half] -.- There are so many things i have in mind that i want to do. Let's see :

*most of all, PLAY PLAY PLAY.

*ENJOY MY STAY IN PHIL. [i hope my cousins there are still intact with me. we're like strangers for god sake-.-]

*CUT/COLOUR MY HAIR OR MAYBE CHANGE HAIRSTYLE. [i need a new fresh look which could go "WOW" =D]

*I WANT TO PIERCE MY EAR but i have phobia about it =S

*NEED A JOB DESPERATELY. WITH HIGH PAYS OF COURSE. [i'm very broke now]

*PLAN A TRIP TO SOMEWHERE. [i don't mind where it is as long as it's a trip!]

*CLUBBING??! ^o^

*MAKAN HABIS-HABISAN. [still, i need fats]

*SHOP SHOP SHOP!

and the list goes on and on and on.....

Having mixed feelings. it's indescribable. i don't want to miss out any fun, i want to maximize my freedom like there's no tomorrow :0

sushan's motto : *i live to enjoy, i enjoy to satisfy*

so, please. occupy my time with your laughter, your craziness, even your loneliness. EVERYTHING YOU HAVE! I am more than glad to spend it all with you :)

alcoholic craze :/

2008-11-09T00:22:00.006+08:00

been drinking again.

stress.

didn't study much.

guilty. :[

wanted to de-stress.

and tiger helps a lot =D

*wish me luck pls

20 Days Left!

2008-10-28T23:02:00.007+08:00

I can't believe I am still so laid back right now, right here, right in front of my lappie.zzz.

Was so determined to study yesterday but....

You know what happened.

And today, managed to flip through few pages ONLY then tertido!!!!

aRGhhhh!

God, please help me.

I need ohm!

*******************************

Found this while searching for my old notes. Was a short poem given by Pn. Rahimah when we were having our SPM.

"Bercintalah dengan pelajaran,

Bertunanglah dengan mengulang kaji,

Berkahwinlah dengan peperiksaan,

Dan berbulan madulah dengan kejayaan."

I miss the old days. :(

But life still have to go on.

Can't wait for the day

*4.12.08*

when I get my freedom.

But for now, just hope I can do well.

*folding hands and pray*

STRESS

2008-10-26T00:21:00.005+08:00

Yes, I am procrastinating again.

DAMN.

anyway, why is it always so many shit happened whenever we are going through important and crucial moment like this. Why can't everyone shut up just for the sake of this one month. Homosapiens just love creating problems. And it keeps going on and on and on!

Hee :D

2008-10-04T03:12:00.006+08:00

I am very the happy right now.

I mean today.

Yesh, you got me right.

It's was yesterday since it's morning now.

And yesh, I know I'm crapping right now.

I can't help it. I am very the gay right now!

Many many things happened today which really made my day.

Nice one. Never thought it would end up this fun :)

The yumchar-ing, gathering, cinema-ing,

gossiping and so on which I'd better keep it to myself.

Everything went so smooth, so effing nice. [currently no words to describe how it feels ler]

I AM JUST FUCKING HAPPY.

And yea, I am very the contented with everything right now,

minus the major exam I'm gonna face real soon :(

EVERYTHING were going so well that I can't believe it's true. OMG!

Oh well, all thanks to the glory of God.

YAY!

: )

You Did Kidnapped My Heart :)

2008-10-02T22:38:00.007+08:00

Gosh, I am currently in love with Eric Dill !!!!!

He is so HOT AND CUTE and oh my god it's been loooooong since i last gone crazy over artists/singers.

GOSH. Hotness to the max!
Just look at him!!!!

so cute!!! *drowning*

yep, he's rocking the stage!

this is what I call HOT!

OH MY GOSH!!!

JUST LOOK AT HIM!!!!

Take a look at this too :) It's his promotional acoustic performance of "Kidnap My Heart" for the release of "Taking 5"!

Right now, I don't need anything more..

I want him. :D Hee~!

HELP! I'm roasted.

2008-09-27T22:50:00.005+08:00

I looked like i'm being burn. Sister's bf says I looked like a drunken ang-moh with the red cheeck except that I'm not blonde -______-

Red hot spot everywhere and it's FUCKING ITCHY(it's like you're boiling in a hot pot)

Regretting right now. Shoudn't expose to the sun too much but who cares. Enjoy dulu marr..that is what matter the most. Ha! Okie, enough crapping i blog about that later on. There's like so much stuff I haven't post it out here..grrr, just keep hoping I will be a lil hardworking alright :)

***************

YAY! There's a cinema in Taiping.FINALLY! Thank God!
Get to catch this new movie screening last night, Painted Skin. It's a horror film but not entirely horror lar. It's more about love hate relationship between a vixen spirit and a group of humans during the back days. Not scary at all but overall nice. Ending was perfect. Worth watching. Go catch it out. And one thing I am absofuckinglutely happy is that there's midnite movie in this beloved cinema of Taiping. Owhh, I'm so gonna crash it whenever I'm loaded. Muahaha! And with the present of student card it only fucking cost 6bucks! 6 BUCKS??!!! Okie, cheapskate I am :0

PEOPLE who make me smile (:

2008-09-21T20:23:00.010+08:00

swimming was SUPERB yesterday.

the sky was blue,

the weather was soothing,

the water was clear,

and the people rock!

*loves* :)

*pictures will be uploaded soon and there's even an own-made video that will surely laugh the ass out of you. Just wait!

on another note, here's what we did for our beloved sin yee's birthday. Only manage to take this two miserable pictures cause I'm busy enjoying myself but don't worry, there are videos coming up soon. WAIT!

here's khey with her oh-so-putih-mia-gigi. She can be Darlie/Colgate's model ler.

they were trying to be emo kids. -.-'

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Remember the picture I last posted here?? And no, it's not a cloth or anywhat you think it is, maxie. I'm gonna reveal what it actually is right now.

yep, that's my disposal blackheads's strip. HA HAA HAAAA!

Damn banyak betui blackheads aku. *sobs*

and I don't know why I love touching it with my finger.

Disgusting ain't??!

I got TAGGED.

2008-09-16T17:24:00.004+08:00

1. The person who tag you is:
> Cyndi the small kid

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
> classmate/my wannabe lesbian partner (:

3. Your five impression of him/her:
>hmm, let’s see. –petite
-very short [I can’t help mentioning this.haha]
-crazy and funny at times
-love to sing and smile a lot
-she has a kind heart

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
> letting me to copy her answers during mid term exam. Oopss!

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
> this is hard. i can'think of.

6. If he/she become your lover, you will:
> force her to watch lesbian porno with me so we can ‘memaksimumkan kenafsuan’ each other. LOL!

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
> make sure she get taller at least an inch?? Haha.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:
> hopefully it won’t happen. If this happen, I’ll pray everyday that she’ll get shorter. *evil grin*

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
> she got taller than me. [I wonder will u get taller]

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
> yep, finish this ASAP and celeb her birthday in the night.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
> fun to be with I can say.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
> loud, talkative, crazy in the head, love to pull prank on people??

13. The characters you love of yourself are:
> always on the positive side, open-minded and having fun like nobody business.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
> when I’m moody/bad-tempered, procrastinate too much, self-conscious, easily scared off.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
> the perfect me of course and having faith in Him always and forever ;)

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
> you guys are the greatest gift I ever had and I hope our friendship stay strong till the end of our lives. ^^

17. Pass this quiz to 5 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
#1. Yape
#2. Ei ling
#3. Maxie
#4. Daniel
#5. Endry

18. Who is no.1 having relationship with?
> someone from Sgpor that is not that straight?? Haha. No offence alright (:

19. Is no.4 a male or female?
> male

20. If no.3 and 5 are together, will it be a good thing?
> WOW, I can’t imagine that. IT IS TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE!

22. What is no.2 studying about?
> accountancy in Metro.

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
> few days ago I guess.

24. What kind of music band does no.4 like?
> I’m not sure, you go ask him. Ha!

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?
> do you?? Haha, I’m not sure man.oh gosh sorry yape.

26. Will you woo no.2?
> why should I? she likes someone.

27. How about no.4?
> woo him?? LOL, I don’t think that’s a good idea. Right,dan??

28. Is no.1 single?
> I thought I just answered that? -_-‘

29. What is the surname of no.3?
> ng

31. Does no.1 and 5 get along well?
> of course not. For God sake, they don’t even know each other!

32. Where is no.2 studying at?
>I thought I just answered that too! Its Metropolitan.

33. Talk something casually about no.1:
> she is so darn punk right now and I want her body XD

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.3?
> Ha. That is so not funny. Me liking Maxie?? You should ask her.

35. Where does no.5 live at?
> Kedah but currently in usm

36. What colour does no.2 like?
> hey, I know this. It’s GREEN!

37. Are no.3 and 1 best friend?
> they are friends.

38. Does no.3 have any pets?
> in Taiping, yes. But in aussie?? I’m not sure. Does your sister’s cat count? Lol.

39. Is no.1 the sexiest person in the world?
> ermm, that’s hard to answer. Haha. But I would say yes since I wanted your body so much. Right, yape?? [guess you’ll be laughing your ass out when you see this]

40. What is no.5 doing now?
> material engineering in usm.

this tag is effing boring and tiring!

Two more days to go!

2008-09-15T17:35:00.004+08:00

Before my trial ends.

Yep, I can't wait for the moment...

*imagining myself relaxing in my comfy lil room with my beloved lappie and slack off*

WooHOoo~ That's the best way to de-stress I can say, at least for me ;))

and...

The exciting part is I CAN HANG OUT WITHOUT FEELING THE GUILTY-NESS IN ME*claps for myself*

Having plans for swimming and badminton SOON! i love love lovessss~!

and oh yea, i purposely uploaded this pic for you guys to see. Any idea what is this?? O.o'

It's Frustrating that...

2008-09-12T20:51:00.006+08:00

I CAN’T GET FAT !

GRRrrr! All I’m asking for is to gain some weight and look fatter. That is what I am telling myself for like..all the time??! Gosh, it is FREAKING FRUSTRATING when something or someone reminds me of how thin I am. Yesh, I know I am thin. In fact, I am more than just thin or in another meaning that defines me is I AM SKINNY!

Though many out there define THIN = PERFECT, I certainly hate being this thin you know. My ‘skinniness’ is way too over from what others imagined what ‘thin’ is. I mean mine is not the thin which make someone looks fine/nice or acceptable. Do you understand what I actually mean? Fine, forget about it if you can’t understand what I am trying to say. The main point is I want to be fatter. That’s all.

Have you ever wanted something so badly and it turns out to be the opposite??

It is very the heartbreaking okie. ( gosh, I got influence by ppei’s ‘very the’ )
I tried getting fatter by eating more and frequently but it end up...ME GETTING THINNER! THINNER?! CAN YOU BELIEVE???? I ATE MORE THAN USUAL AND IT TURNS OUT TO BE SOMETHING I NEVER EVER WANT! Even she-male said I look thinner now compared to last time [which was a few months back]

The moral of the story : DON’T PUSH/FORCE YOURSELF OR GET TOO DESPERATE FOR WANTING SOMETHING BADLY. Right??

Weird does it seems, what can I do? Sigh. ;(
I do get offended when people (some not-so-close-friends/mum’s friends) start telling me or my mum how thin I am and wonder whether I’m eating proper food or not -.- Somehow it hurts because it reminds me of my skinniness! There was once when someone said I am so thin that there will be no size for me and that my clothes are from the small kid department. I know she is just saying or maybe teasing but it does hurt. I did not reacted to what she said and just let out a smile though in my heart I feel like answering back ‘it is better than being as fat as you’. LOL~!

Lately, I become more conscious about this sickening problem. I guess it is because there are a few asking me to eat more and grow fatter. Heck, that is what I want too. It is easy for them to say that because they don’t know where the problem lies. I CAN’T SEEM TO ‘LOOK’ FATTER THOUGH MY WEIGHT INCREASED. But I’m still underweight. =/

Can anyone explain to me why?

I even pray to God to make me gain some weight. I know it sound silly but I believe in Him. All things are possible when you believe in Him. That is what gets me going. :)

I do admire people who get fat easily though for them it is not a good thing. Aha! Everyone want to be thin and me wanting to be fat DESPERATELY! A person who hears me saying that will stare at me as if I came from the other planet. Yesh, I get those weird stares before. And they will start saying:

“‘Har, no girl want to become fat but you want lor??! So weird lor you.”
or
“Wahhh, this is the first time I heard girl will say she want to be fat ler.”

SIGHHHHHH... SIGHHHHHH~ SIGHHHHHH~~~!!

Saddening weh. It’s hard to tell you how it feels. I’m always at the positive side but when it comes to this I can’t help but feeling like I’m at the edge of nowhere. Get me? I don’t think so.
FATS. PLEASE COME TO ME I NEED YOU. I AM MORE THAN HAPPY IF ANYWHO CAN DONATE SOME FATS TO ME? If only there is this new technology or whatever packages that offers you to gain weight rather than slimming down. I will make sure I would be the first to join it ;)

OMG. I'm...

2008-08-15T23:26:00.003+08:00

IN LOVE WITH HOOPING DULCINEA.

GOSH.

I'M DESPERATE =x

LALA GREEN. Yeah?

2008-07-07T23:48:00.005+08:00

what do you think?

i just love the colour.

yeah~! Go Green babes.

Are we that xlxt ??

2008-07-07T21:03:00.004+08:00

Mummy went KL today.

So, I bought Bubur Ayam McD for lunch.

What happen was ......

During dinner, my dad bought porridge for me.

-_________-

*i nearly pukes ;(

I'm Missing My 'she-male' ;(

2008-06-24T12:36:00.003+08:00

I always say I feel sick.
And guess what. Finally I’m sick again -.-
I think I have sore throat. Just like everyone had after the bbq party.
But doc says I have fever -_______________-
Suddenly I realise that I always fall sick somewhere near my bday. [mom said that too]
Just like last year I had fever and flu on my bday and now again???!!
Sometimes I wonder whether it is just coincidence or it’s like a curse or something I don’t know how to say it in words. @_@
Anyway, I’ll try NOT to be a lazy blogger and so I’ll tell you how I spent my 19th bday soon k ;))
One word. BLAST!!!

Feel damn weak and moody now. Many things is running in my thoughts and mind right now. HUH!
But am feeling a lil bit better after having a video call with ‘someone special’ all the way from South Carolina, am I right? *short term memory lost* miss u lots ler ;( and oh yea, I wanna know more about the ‘ang-mo’ guy !!! =D

Huh. Someone just ffk me. Some more bluff me too. You gonna get whack from me SOON! *sad*

Urgh..what am I writing here?? ==
*This post is meant for me to pass my time because I feel so bored ponteng-ing school. AHA!
So, please do not bother to read this post. It’s just a way for me to lepaskan ke-moody-an aku.

A Laughter A Day Kicks The Biatch Away

2008-06-16T18:28:00.009+08:00

"When I got home from work last night, my wife demanded that I take her out to some place expensive................

So I took her to a petrol station."

LOL.laugh the ass out of me =.='

I NEED OHM !

2008-06-13T02:13:00.002+08:00

Huh.
out of a sudden i feel like stopping form 6.i don't know why?!
feel so sick of it! i guess it's more to stress.
Sigh~!

I have the feeling that i won't do well in my STPM. Even now, i keep telling myself to start study but ... faham-faham je lar.
NOTHING SEEMS TO GET/ENCOURAGES ME TO START STUDYING.NOTHING!!!
I seriously need some ohm.anywho anyhow anywhere i don't care! ;( Someone said i don't have the look of getting 4 flat wor. i know its hard for this to happen but still it hurts a lil when they said that =/ so sad! I'm feeling so desperate to get good results. call me Desperado please -__- cause this matter keeps bothering me.so much that i don't feel NORMAL now! such thing never happen during my SPM but why now?!! zzzz.

I think i need you to advice me now. but you're busy with your mock! haih...
i want to go fishing, i want to go red hill and i want to jog!!!!
Cause i'm too weak now.

urgh~! need to stop here. If not i might go on and on and on crapping nonsense.
because
STATUS : emo-ing =x

I'M IN LOVE WITH HOLIDAYSSSSS

2008-06-08T22:13:00.010+08:00

School hols going to end soon =(
Another few hours left and I’ll be off to school. *sigh*
This time I seriously need to start concentrate and pia for STPM man. Or else I’m gonna regret when I get my result. Really hope I can get a result which is good enough to get into Uni with the courses I like. Ahha~ it’s not that easy okie !

THIS POST IS MEANT TO BE WHAT I DID/HAPPEN DURING THIS 2 WEEKS OF SCHOOL HOLS
[actually never thought of posting bout it but pei make me feel like blogging XD]

Let’s see........

Went to Langkawi!!!
Ahah! But not me lar, last minute I got stuff to do so can’t make it. Regret betui but what to do, even get lecture from my cousin for not going. Sobs! Anyway, at least I get to see and ‘feel’ from these pictures taken by them ;)

Went to RTM Ipoh and Jusco with my school’s club, Siaraya & Media.

this is Sow Ann

lunch in Sushi King

delicious~

Big Apple's donut

Urgh..something stupid and extraordinary incident did happen. Thanks Mr. ambulance ;)
Went for a big feast with my crazy gang. Just look at how much we ate then you’ll know. Seriously enjoying and satisfying, all thanks to Sow Ann *big clap to her*

Went yum char with friends who came back for hols. A meaningful gathering I can say cause I get to know someone who can really click with me. And finally I get to online in Prima Cafe with my new laptop. *happy happy*
Went to drink Heineken again =DDD in Tai Oh. 3 big bottles man. All thanks to someone. [you know who you are ;)]

Get to go jog and badminton. Cause I’m too weak lately;( but the plan to hike up Maxwell Hill tak jadi lar pei. Sigh!

this pic is funny

hand in hand.let's walk together.how lovely.haha

Plan to go Bukit Merah but end up cancelled because someone damn sou heng ffk us AGAIN =P
My first hangover night.
GOSH..FRIGGIN LOVING IT!!!! Guess no one understand what I mean. *secret* HAHA!
Get to lepak with Caryn, Pei and Sow Ann until early morning. Such thing seldom happen okie since Sow Ann is too ‘guai’. LOL!
Went to playground. FINALLY. With Pei. It feels so nice I tell you. Just by sitting at the big slide doing nothing for few hours, enjoying our lonely night. Ahah. Don’t you think so, Pei? ;) I still can’t stop feeling funny bout your grandpa’s ‘aherm aherm’. HAHAHAH~!

i love playground.i don't know why!

people says its chicken leg ;(

Get to learn to make blueberry cake. Thanks Ying Ling. The feeling after you get to do something you don’t normally do really makes you feel darn happy. I don’t know how to describe it. Go try it yourself!

Went to my church’s concert, CYBERCROSS 5. Kinda boring actually -.-But luckily that night doesn’t just end like that. GOSH I TELL YOU, I WENT CLUBBING!!!! IN TAIPING?? CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! OH MY FATHER GOD, IT FEELS SO FREAKING FUN I DONT MIND DYING RIGHT AFTER THAT. HAHA. I think I exaggerate it but seriously it’s fun cause this is my first time and i’m lovin it. It makes me widen up my view about certain stuff.
[If you’re seeing this,really thanks so much for bringing and taking care of me there. I did enjoyed myself ;) even get to ‘loosen’ myself a bit from stress] Won’t ever forget this moment..especially seeing those two guys fucking each other. LOL!

Gosh, suddenly damn love this school holidays. Gonna be the most meaningful + interesting holidays I ever had. Thanks to you guys who make it meaningful okie.

So now, it’s time for a pause for all these.
I seriously have to start revise and put in 101% effort after the end of this hols =/
I NEED SOME OHM!!!

URGHH~! Moody Sia!!!!

2008-05-25T01:50:00.002+08:00

What is actually happening to me?

All of a sudden, I feel so moody and weak. As if like there’s nothing left for me to look forward to the days ahead. I thought I will feel better and relieve when midyear exam totally over but... now I’m feeling even weird. I don’t know how to describe that feeling, it’s like something has gone, is missing, out of place. That something seems to bothers me so much that I feel empty without it. Sigh. Life sucks at the moment. I guess I seriously need a lil bit of love right now. L-O-L

RIH please!!!!

2008-04-30T01:45:00.006+08:00

arghh.. can't stand seeing you guys faces..making me wanna puke ok! plz la..wanna bluff also bluff pro abit lar..so stupid who will believe it? do all those bad things already some more wanna complain to others that you are very sad,guilty and wat-so-ever...bla bla bla.. PLZ LARRR, dare to do it but don't dare to admit..wtf?!! and stop being coward can. everything were so clear that you are bluffing non stop and you stil can deny it as if you are totally not in the wrong at all? wahh, top actress man i tell you. you can even get bunch of ammy award with your skills man. some more dare to curse people that accuse you? haha..i feel so pity for you.. hiding cowardly all the time while showing all those innocent faces to others..acting as if you're the most innocent lil angel who is so good,so understanding and all those farking stupid act. stupid sia!!! this is the choice you choose. you rather see me suffering than telling me the truth. fine, i accept it cause im too stupid to know that you're faking it and make everything up a story. so plz stop saying that you're guilty, sad and don't actually know why we treat you this way. you are too smart for this lar plz.. you can make up such an interesting story..so perfect, i really should salute you man. using crying skills to make others believe in you. wow~

one word for you. STOP ACTING! YOU ARE SO PATHETIC. and i am pity for those people who believe in you. such pity cause they are fools. Ahah~

ONCE A BIATCH ALWAYS A BIATCH

should be your lifetime motto man. Tsk~

Guilty. Fun. Exhausted.

2008-04-26T22:22:00.011+08:00

Ahah~
Went to few places to lepak after Maths extra class. Feeling guilty all the time because mid-year exam is just around the corner, but I just can’t stop going out. Dying soon, AGAIN!
Nvm nvm, at least I did study for like half an hour in library? LOL~!

the 'rajin' ones

Start cam-whoring again..with cyndi this time

Soon after that, went to eat Lok-Lok at that tepi jalan stall. Still the nicest among all =D

Did not take any pictures of it. Busy eating mar ^^ but did took the pictures of this jellies. I forgotten the name..go see pei’s or Cyndi’s blog IF they did blog about it. But I know the black ones, which is mine contained turtle’s flesh or don’t know which part of its body =/ and I don’t even know about it until I already ate almost half of the jelly when pei told me. GOSH!!!! Anyway, it tasted somehow okie ler ;)

yaaaAAAAaam seeEEng~~

cyndi is DISGUSTING!

Guess what!
Tey Yee Van that crazy girl wore her short upside down!!!!
No lar, actually just terbalik. Don’t know what happen till she could ‘mis-wear’ it. LOL~!

hey, is that big foot??!!

big foot vs children foot ~.+

yee van's innocent face

another innocent face..haa~

pei, mana lu mia coconut head??

and here,hiao po cyndi. how many marks would you give for her hiao-ness?? anyone?

or do you prefer pei the cutie pie chicken+coconut head??

pssstt~ pei, can u spot something different? Ha Ha~

While waiting for sow ann to bring her dog, Bunny........

love this! We are retarded ;D

I LOVE LAKE GARDEN!!!!!

And so does my lala nike shoe ^^

Right after we finish jog, went for siam laksa at Kamunting...

this is Brownie. It's a she ok.

And this is Mimi. She HATES camera,seriously.

Struggled for so damn long only get to take her pics. HUH~

this aunty help me to stop her from running.

this girl here, remember her face! she is super duper hyperactive i tell you! You wouldn't wanna know her, she annoys me man.

while waiting for the noodles, pei yvan cyndi bought cakes from Lido [if I'm not mistaken]

i love that mango ice-cream cake so much!!!

AaaaaHHhhhh~

Not a bad day though ;))

Unpredictable.but i <3 it

2008-04-18T23:38:00.004+08:00

Hmm, life is so unpredictable!
I trust and believe in you with all my heart,
And you disappoint me!
Feeling hurt and sad, I told myself not to trust easily anymore.
But...
Within seconds, you uplift me with new hopes,
I’m touched...I’m overjoyed...
Nothing can describe how happy I am now ;)
I thought you didn’t care for me
I thought you forgotten me
I thought I’m too worthless to be cared for
But you proved me wrong
You were always with me, guiding me behind the shadow of my past
You make me realise lotsa stuff...
For the sake of you and my future I will try to forget him
I hope I can but I can’t promise
One thing for sure,
I do <3>

uh oh..I'm getting emo these days. SHYT LARRR!!!

H.E.A.R.T.S.T.O.P.P.E.D

2008-03-24T00:15:00.007+08:00

My ♥ aches.

I do not know why.

My ♥ beats tremendously.

I do not know why.

My ♥ dies off just like that.

and i do not know why !!!

.i feel like shouting out.

.one word. sucks!

Easter Day

2008-03-23T18:33:00.007+08:00

It’s Easter Sunday today. But I did not go to church. Overslept.
Feeling a lil guilty =/ always do so but I just can’t help it. I told myself many many times to repent by going the next Sunday but end up I’ll be sleeping at home again. *sigh* I really need some ohm man. God, please forgive my sin ;D

Anyway, for whoever who don’t really know what’s Easter is, read it on I tell yea.

On Easter Sunday, Christians celebrate the resurrection of the Lord, Jesus Christ. According to the Bible, Jesus came back to life. It means he’s dead and was raised from the dead, three days after his death on the cross. Incredible? Hee~ Through his death, burial and resurrection, Jesus paid the penalty of all our sin and thus whoever believes in him will have eternal life.

Since young, I will always get to make or get an egg on Easter Day. I still remember there was once when we have to find all the Easter eggs which were hidden around the garden of someone’s house (I forgotten whose house already lar, it was so long ago) if I’m not mistaken Maxie was there too. LOL! So darn funny I tell you. Everyone were finding for the eggs as whoever who did not found at least one egg will get punish. EVIL!!!

Back to the point, I want to say that this year sadly I did not do anything. I guess it’s more for the young ones to enjoy. I’m over the age of it already XD But one thing I still couldn’t forget is last year Easter, April 8. I just realize it this noon when I woke up. 2days after it (i guess no one knows what i mean) HAHAHAH~ Last year I did get an egg, and this egg was the most meaningful egg for me =D I was shocked at first when he gave me the Easter egg. Firstly, I didn’t expect it. Secondly, he’s not even a Christian and he anti-Christ wan wor -_____-

Well well, weird does it seems but I won’t ever forget ;)

One thing I’m piss off is the egg is no longer with me. My mum threw it away. Zzzz!!!
She did not ask me or even inform me about it. And when I found out about it, which was few days after she threw it I go and ask her. Guess what she says. She told me the egg broke and was smelly so she throws it away. How can the egg broke if no one touches it and the egg was kept for like few months already. If it smells, it should smells long time ago. GRrrrRR!!!! She did not tell me and when I ask her only she tells me. So obvious that she’s the one who broke it and kept it quietly!

And now I can only see it through this pic. ;(

cute?

my piggie egg, i miss you. seriously!